Chapter 4 (Is it over?)

Idris: Why the hell you running away? Did you fuck him or something? 
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...

I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.






A few days later 


(Beyonce)


I was sitting on the couch watching TV talking to Tavia. This little girl is just like me sometimes. 




Tavia: Mama! When daddy gets here can we all play the wii?
Beyonce: Sure. 
Tavia: Whats wrong mommy?
Beyonce: Nothing I'm just tired..
Tavia: Well... How about we take a nap.. 
Beyonce: That will be brilliant. 




We both fell asleep two hours later i got waken up by my phone it was my mama?


Beyonce: Hello?
Ms.Tina: Hey hunny. Whats going on?

I didn't want my mother in my business but she is my mother.


Beyonce: Well mom he hit me..
Ms. Tina: What did you do?
Beyonce: What you mean what i do.... 
Ms. Tina: You must have done something to piss him off.
Beyonce: Ok so what that still don't give him a right to hit me
Tina: So wat are you trying to say? Are you about to leave him
Beyonce: Maybe
Tina: Beyonce listen to me you have to suck it up and just be a good wife he takes good care of you and Tavia. He treats both of you like queens
Beyonce: I know but he still put his hands on me and he did it more then once. I don't need Tavia seeing me beat and bruised up.
Tina: Well stop pissing him off
Beyonce: You know what... I shouldn't even have told you BYE. 


I know I was wrong for hanging up on her but she just pissed me off. As soon as i turned the tv off Idris walked around the corner and he look piss. He just picked up Tavia and took her to her room. Came back in mad as ever. I already knew what was up and I wasn't about to let him beat my ass again. I am not his child.


Idris: So WTF was your mother about to do?
Beyonce: I mean i thought she would have my back but she says you were right. CH.... 
Idris: So what now you about to tell you daddy? What he gonna do huh. 


Idris started yelling and cussin me out. I got madder and madder all I could do was cuss him back out. 


Idris: *yelling louder and louder* This is OUR relationship. DON"T tell no one what goes on between us. 
Beyonce: YOU TELL THAT BITCH YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIEND EVERYTHING.
Idris: Who Shelby? She is not a bitch
Beyonce: YESS 


Idris started to piss me off. He started to walk around and he walk towards me with force and punch the shit out of my ass and i started crying and got up and walked towards the bathroom and wiped my face and came back where he was and i punch his ass back and we started fighting. He finally got hold of me and started choking me.I was loosing breath then suddenly I kicked his ass in his balls. He bended down holding them and I had on some thick combat boots and I kick his ass in the stomach. I started throwing vases at his head. He started to fall down and he was laying there helpless i just kept hitting him until i felt someone grab me and pick me up. It was a deep baritone voice telling me to " CALM DOWN BEYONCE" I look up and it was Shawn.  He put me on the couch and I calm down a little. 


Beyonce: How did you get here?
Shawn: I came to pick up something that idris told me to come get and when I got here the door was open and I heard glasses being broken. 
Beyonce: Well you better get him before I kill him. 
Shawn: *kicking him* I think he passed out after you threw the last vase at him. 


Shawn kept trying to calm me down and after I was calm I called Kelly and asked to come over. With in 20 minutes the Solange and Kelly came running in. My sister Solange is crazier than I am that's why I didn't call her I didn't want her getting into any trouble. 


Beyonce: Kelly why did you call Solange
Kelly: We was together. OMGGGGGGG Bey Look at your face..
Solange: DAMMMMMM you did that?
Beyonce: He hit me twice so i got mad and hit his ass back and he started fighting. he choke me and i kicked him in the balls and he fell and i started beat his ass. 
Shawn: and she was throwing vases at him.
Kelly: Did ya'll check to see if he was alive
Solange: Who gives a flying fuck. For his sake he better be dead because if he wake up imma beat his ass
Beyonce: Calm down Solo I already took care of it and yes Kelly he is breathing
Shawn: Beyonce why don't you go pack a bag and you and Tavia can stay with me a couple of days.
Beyonce: I couldn't do that
Shawn: Its cool I have a guess house you can stay in.
Kelly: Bey you really need to go pack because when he wakes up he just might kill you
Solange: I will fuck him up
Beyonce: Solo please stop and I'll go pack


It took me about 15 minutes to pack and before I knew it I was inside  of Jay's car and was about to pull off but then I realized I left my phone in the house.


Beyonce: Wait I left my phone I'll be right back. Tavia sit here with Shawn I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok


I went back into the house and started looking for my phone. I went back into the room where the fight had happen at and I noticed Idris wasn't there anymore so I got really scared and yelled outside for Shawn. Then I turned around and felt a fist to my face and that was all I remembered. When I woke I was in the hospital and Solange and Kelly was by my beside.


Beyonce: What happen
Solange: OHMYGOD Thank god you are ok
Beyonce: Solange where is Tavia
Kelly: She is with your mother. They went down stairs to get something to eat.


I felt like shit. My head was pounding and my face felt like somebody rode over it with a car. 


Beyonce: Do one all ya'll have a mirror
Kelly: Ummm Bey maybe you should just relax
Beyonce: What the hell you mean relax what happen to me and please give me a mirror
Solange: Fine!!! Here *handing Bey the mirror* 


I looked a my face and immediately started crying. How could I be so stupid and my daughter seen my like this. I just  couldn't believe my eyes. Then all the memories of that night started rushing back.


Beyonce: *crying* Oh my god where is Shawn
Kelly: In jail
Beyonce: In jail for what
Solange: He beat the shit out of Idris.
Beyonce: Where is he
Solange: Idris is in jail for beating the shit out of you.
Kelly: But all of the charges has been dropped against Shawn he should be out by tomorrow morning
Beyonce: And Idris??
Kelly: Thats up to you Beyonce. If you decided to not press chargers he will be a free man.
Tavia: Mommy!!!!!
Beyonce: *sniffs and looks at Tavia* Hi baby
Tavia: *crying* Your face mommy
Beyonce: I know baby I'm ok how about if you go home with Kelly and auntie Solange and I'll see you tomorrow.
Tavia: No mommy I want to stay here with you


I hugged Tavia and we cried together. I was soooo embarrassed how could I let my baby see me like this. After a while Tavia had fell asleep and Kelly, Solo and my mom had left. My mom didn't even say anything to me I guess she was mad or something I really don't know and I really didn't care. Soon after they left I fell asleep too with Tavia lying on my chest. I slept for about 1 or 2 hours then I was woken up by a male voice and it scared the shit out of me. How you doing, he said to me


Beyonce: I'm ok. And thanks for everything
Shawn: Its cool, I don't believe in a man putting his hands on a women he got what he deserved.
Beyonce: I guess
Shawn: So are you gona press charges because if not he is getting out tomorrow
Beyonce: I thought you was getting out tomorrow
Shawn: Well things change. So are you gonna press charges 
Beyonce: Tavia needs her father in her life
Shawn: Are you serious right now
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn: BEYONCE LOOK AT YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: Could you please keep your voice down
Shawn: I went to jail for you last night and you're telling me it was for nothing 
Beyonce: I'm sorry you went to jail but he is my husband. My mom is right I have to stop pissing him off.
Shawn: *reaching into his pocket and pulled out a mirror* Look at yourself Beyonce. Do you see what he did to you
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please get that out my face
Shawn: Not until you look at your self
Beyonce: I already did
Shawn: I wont you to look at yourself again and tell me what you see
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please stop!!
Shawn: Fine!! I'll leave this mirror here for you. You look at yourself when you get ready. Beyonce you have to learn to love yourself
Beyonce: I do love myself
Shawn: You can't love yourself if you are still with someone who is treating your face like a punching bag. You know your daughter is gona remember this when she get older
Beyonce: Can you please leave
Shawn: I was just about to. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need anything
Beyonce: What ever
Shawn: Ok then. Bye
Beyonce: *silence*


Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.


(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell


To Be Continued........