Ok lets recap so far Beyonce went from having the perfect relationship to having one of the worst. Her husband Idris caught her taking birth control pills and it crushed him so he started taking his anger out on Bey. He put her in the hospital and after that Bey decided to move into Jay's guest house but only because CPS threaten to take away Tavia (Bey's 5 year old daughter). Soon Idris started receiving help for issues and because of that all charges against him was dropped. Idris than showed up at Jay's guest house the day after Bey and Jay spent a wonderful evening together and Jay walked in on the two of them kissing. Jay was coming to pick up his daughter Jessica who had spent a night. When Jay seen them too kissing he realized Bey was still in love with Idris. Bey tried to apologize but it didn't work out so well Jay stormed out and Bey also realized that she was still in love with her husband.
Now.......
I know Shawn is mad at me but I'm not ready to let go of my husband. Idris is getting help and it looks like things are getting better. Since I moved back with Idris a month ago has only put his hands on me a few times and all the times he did it was my fault and I kind of deserved it. The last time he hit me was last night and he didn't leave a bruise where he hit me at but he did leave one on my arm. He grabbed my arm so tight it left a black and purple bruise just above my wrist. Idris was going to work and I was going to meet Shawn at the studio so we can continue working on my first album. Since I've been back with Idris I haven't really had time to work on it because Idris sort of keep me on a tight schedule, but today I had some free time so I decided to go to the studio. I dressed in a long sleeve shirt to hide the bruise on my arm which hurt like hell, some jeans and some red bottoms. Well anyway I kissed Idris and told him I was leaving and that I was gonna take Tavia with me. He said ok and be back at around six so I could cook dinner. He didn't get off of work until 7 but he wanted dinner to be ready by the time he got home. I said ok and Tavia and I left. We arrived at the studio 45 minutes later and when I walked in I saw Shawn sitting at the music board turning knobs and doing other stuff. We greeted each other and he said hi Tavia and then we got to work. All while we was working it was a little awkward because I knew how Shawn felt about me I just couldn't leave Idris. We had gotten so lost in the music that I forgot about the time. After I had finished recording about six songs I stepped out the booth and asked Shawn what time was it and he told me it was a little after 7 and my heart dropped. I checked my phone and I had 15 missed calls from Idris which made my heart drop a little more. I told Shawn that I had to go and he grabbed my arm right where Idris left the bruise and its cause me to screech in pain. He didn't grab my arm hard it was just that the bruise hurt soooo badly.
(Beyonce) Occch Shawn.
(Jay) I'm sorry I didn't mean to grab you that hard.
(Beyonce) It wasn't you. Its ok 'm find
I guess Shawn caught on to what was going on so he asked to see my arm.
(Jay) Beyonce let me see your arm
(Beyonce) No! For what I have to go
(Jay) Beyonce has he been hitting you
(Beyonce) No. Now please move from in front of the door so I can leave.
(Jay) Let me see your arm first
I could tell Shawn wasn't gonna give up so I just showed him my arm
(Beyonce) See are you happy!
(Jay) Beyonce why are you letting him do this to you
(Beyonce) Shawn he didn't do this I smashed my arm in thee door
(Tavia) No you didn't I saw daddy-
(Beyonce) TAVIA!!!! Please!!
(Jay) Beyonce just come home with me. Let me take care of you
(Tavia) Please mommy can we move back with Shawn
(Beyonce) *tearing up* I can't. Come on Tavia lets go.
(Tavia) But mommy-
(Beyonce) Tavia NOW!!
(Tavia) Ok :-(
Shawn moved out of my way and when I got into the car Tavia and I had a long conversation.
(Beyonce) Tavia for now on don't ever say anything about what goes on in our house. Its our house and our business no one else. Do you understand me?
(Tavia) Yes
(Beyonce) Ok. I love you Tavia
(Tavia) I love you too mommy
The rest of the ride home was silent. Once I got in front of the house it it took everything I had in my body to get out the car and go into the house because I knew what was waiting for me on the other side of the door. I got out the car and picked Tavia up because I knew he wouldn't me if I had Tavia in my arms. I opened the door and there was Idris sitting down waiting on me. The look in his eyes scared the shit out of me so I immediately started crying. I think Tavia knew what was about to happen because she shifted her body around so that we where chest to chest. She laid her head on my shoulder and start hugging me. She whispered in my ear and said mommy I love you. I told her I loved her too and before I knew it Idris had took Tavia out of my arms. Tavia tried hanging on for dear life but Idris won the battle of course. He put Tavia down and told her to go play and soon after that she disappeared out of sight.
(Idris) Where were you
(Beyonce) I was still at the studio. I lost track of time baby I'm sorry.
(Idris) I told you to be here at 6 so you can cook. I've been at work all day hungry and when I got home I was expecting a hot meal and I don't see one
(Beyonce) I'm sorry baby. I'll go start it now.
I walked pass Idris and he grabbed me by my hair and slammed me into the floor. He started pounding me and I couldn't help but to screams. I guess Tavia heard the screams because she came into the living and started screaming "STOP DADDY PLEASE!!!" Idris just ignored her screams so she ran up to Idris and started pulling on him. She was trying to save me and I guess it worked because Idris stopped. He got off me and told me I should clean my face up and start dinner. Then he walked away without saying another word. Tavia sat in my lap on the floor and she hugged me and starting crying. We both sat there for a few minutes and then I did what Idris ask me to do. After dinner I gave Tavia a bath and put her in the bed and I read her a story she went to sleep around 9:30. I then went into the bedroom that Idris and I shared I put on my night gown and got into the bed.
(Idris) You know I wouldn't have to hit you if you would just do what I say do
(Beyonce) Yes.
(Idris) I don't wont you going to the studio anymore because it's becoming a problem. I don't think you can work and be my wife. Do understand me
(Beyonce) Yes
(Idris) Ok. I love you
(Beyonce) *silent*
(Idris) What ever
After Idris said I love you to me this time I couldn't bring myself to say it back. He told me what ever and turned around and went to sleep. While I was trying to fall asleep I couldn't help but wonder what life would be like with Shawn. My mind started wondering around and I started getting all these wonderful thoughts. Maybe I couldn't tell Idris I love you back because I knew deep down inside that the relationship we had wasn't love. I thought about the few weeks I spent with Shawn and I started cry because I knew that was love. I looked at the clock and seen that it was 3:37am. Then I looked at Idris who was sound asleep sleeping peacefully which pissed me off. He didn't even look sorry and it made me realize that the hitting and the beating will never stop. I got of bed carefully so I wouldn't wake him. Then I slipped on some pants over my gown and put on a hoodie, I then went into Tavia's room. Since she was already dressed in shorts and a shirt I put a sweater on her and told her to be quiet. She listened and we was out of the house in 5 minutes. When I was driving Tavia asked me where were we going and I told her a better place. Then she asked are we gonna come back home and I told her no.
(Tavia) What about all of our clothes and toys
(Beyonce) Baby we will get new clothes and I will buy you all new toys
(Tavia) Ok
The rest of the ride was silent and Tavia ended up falling asleep. Once I arrived at my destination I picked Tavia up because she was still sleeping. I rung Shawn's doorbell but I didn't get an answer so I started knocking harder and ringing the doorbell faster. By this time it was a little after 4am
(Shawn POV)
I was pissed ass hell like really who is at my damn house at 4 o'clock in the morning. Waking me up out my sleep. Jessica was also in my bed asleep I guess we fell asleep on the movie last night. I put my house shoes on and went to the door. I was really pissed I opened the door and before I really grasp who it was I started yelling
(Jay) Why the hell you beating on my door at 4 in the morning like you the damn pol-
I stop in mid sentence when I realized who it was and I couldn't believe my eyes. It was Bey and Tavia, Beyonce looked like Idris had put another beating on her but it wasn't as bad as the last one.
(Jay) I'm sorry I had know idea it was you come in
As soon as I said that she burst into tears and Tavia had woken up and so did Jessica.
(Jessica) Whats going on daddy
(Jay) Jessica take Tavia to your room and go back to bed
(Jessica) Ok
Beyonce put Tavia down and Tavia ran to Jessica I guess she missed her. Then Beyonce fell to the ground and I went down with her and I just held her. We both sat on the floor with the front door standing wide open for at lease fifteen minutes. Then Beyonce started to talk.
(Beyonce) *sniffs* Shawn I'm sorry about waking you up, I just didn't know where else I could go.
(Jay) Its ok. come on lets get off the floor. We can talk in the morning right now I just wana take care of you.
When Beyonce was trying to stand up I notice she was in pain. So I carried her on to the couch. I than gave her some medicine to ease the pain and I ran her hot bath and put alcohol in the water. I knew it would sooth her. She thanked me over and over again until she feel asleep in my bed wearing my Tshirt. I watched her sleep peacefully until I fell asleep to. The next morning I woke up around 9 and Bey Jessica and Tavia was still asleep. I went into the kitchen and I was about to start making breakfast until I looked out the window and saw Idris at my guest house. I walked outside and we met face to face.
(Jay) What the hell are you doing here
(Idris) I'm looking for my wife and child. Are they here
I couldn't contain my anger so I started beating Idris ass and it felt good. I guess Bey was woken up by all the noise and the sound of her voice stopped up from fighting she started screaming at Idris and I couldn't make out what she was saying
(Idris) What the fuck are you doing here. Wait until we get home
I noticed Beyonce was walking a little to calm toward Idris and then she had one hand behind her back. I knew she was up to something because of the way she was looking. I looked into her eyes and I didn't see Beyonce. Idris was still yelling and not paying any attentions to her. My brain was wondering around I just couldn't think of what she was about to do. That was until I realized I do have a gun in my house and when Bey was getting dressed last night she noticed it. I told don't worry about and then I hid it. I snapped out of my thoughts because I knew she was about to kill him.
(Jay) Beyonce Don't do it!!
(Idris) What the hell are you talking about do what?
I watched as Bey brought the gun into full sight of everybody. I looked at Idris and he looked like he was about to piss his pants. I then began walking up to Beyonce slowly.
(Jay) Please Beyonce don't shoot him. Think about Tavia he you kill him Tavia will not have any of her parents to grow up with
(Beyonce) *crying* I'm sick of him and I wont him out of my life forever *pointing the gun at Idris*
(Jay) I know but this is not the way to do it.
(Beyonce) *silent*
(Idris) You better listen to him
After Idris said that Bey put her finger on the trigger
(Jay) Beyonce don't do this he is not worth it
(Beyonce) Shawn please stop talking. I want him dead
(Idris) You aint gona shoot me
(Jay) Idris shut the fuck up unless you want a bullet in your ass
(Idris) Beyonce shoot me I want you to
Just then Beyonce pulled the trigger and she dropped the gun and I picked it up and she started crying. I thank god the gun wasn't loaded. Then I looked and saw Idris charging after Beyonce. I stopped him before he got to close to her and I started beating his ass. My security that was suppose to be watching my house and keeping people like Idris away came rushing in and broke up the fight. Beyonce then came out of know where and slapped the shit out of Idris. He tried to attack her but my security guards had him. I told my security guards to take him out of here but before the guards was able to Beyonce kicked him in his nuts and Idris scream out in pain. Beyonce then walked back into the house like nothing had happen and my security guards took him away.
I went into the house and saw Bey sitting on the couch she looked at me and said "I'm done with him Shawn last night was it for me". I told her that I loved more than anything else in this world. Well besides Jessica, I then asked her to let me take care of her and Tavia. Then I asked her the biggest question of them all I asked her did she love me and she told me yes. That was all I needed to hear but she carried on.
(Beyonce) *Crying* I loved you since the first day I saw you and I want you to take care of me
I grabbed Beyonce and I kissed her like this was gonna be the last time I saw her but she broke the kiss.
(Jay) What's wrong
(Beyonce) Shawn I meant as a friend. I'm not ready for a serious relationship right now. I'm sorry, maybe Tavia and I should go now.
(Jay) No stay. Its ok I understand. Lets be friends first then maybe one we could have a relation.
(Beyonce) Yea maybe one day
To Be Continued......
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Chapter 6 (Just Friends)
Last Time.......
Kelly and Solange was helping me unpack when my phone starting ringing.
Kelly: Who is that?
Solange: It's probably Idris
Beyonce: Actually its my mom
Now...
Beyonce: Hello?
MamaTina: Hey baby. How are you doing?
Beyonce: I'm good I've moved into a new home and we are settling in.
MamaTina: We?
Beyonce: Solo, Kelly and I they are helping me unpack
MamaTina: Well baby I just wanted to say I'm sorry about how I been acting its not your fault that he put his hands on you. I guess I just got caught up and forgot that I was a mother and that it is my job to keep you safe.
Beyonce: Momma I love you and thanks but I have to go I'm kinda of busy.
MamaTina: Ok honey I love you too. Could you call me back before you go to bed I don't care what time
Beyonce: Sure if I'm not to tired
MamaTina: Ok
I don't know what my daddy said to her but what ever he said had to be pretty convincing. I mean she just totally had a change of heart. After about 5 hours everything was unpacked and Kelly and Solange was tired so they went home. I checked in on Tavia and she was still passed out. I wasn't tired I was depressed I mean I did just loose the love of my life and the father of my child. Even thought that baster hit me I still was in love with him. Was I wrong for that? Anyway after thinking about my life and how much it changed I just cried myself to sleep.
The next morning while Tavia and I was enjoying breakfast we got a surprise visitor.
Tavia: Who's at the door mommy
Beyonce: I don't know just finish eating I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
When I answered the door I didn't even ask who is because I already knew it was Shawn.
Shawn: You should really say who is before you open the door
Beyonce: I already knew it was you
Tavia: Hi Shawn!!
Shawn: Hi Tavia
Beyonce: Did you finish eating
Tavia: Yes!!
Shawn: Good now get dressed
Beyonce: What for?
Shawn: Because I wanna take ya'll out.
Beyonce: Shawn I don't know
Shawn: Its only an amusement park and dinner. I wanna show you how a queen should be treated
Beyonce: I still have a lot of cleaning to do and I few more boxes to unpack.
Shawn: Don't worry about my maid will take care of it for you
Beyonce: But-
Tavia: Please mommy
Shawn: Yea please mommy
Beyonce: *sighs* Ok
Tavia: Yaeee!!!
Shawn: Great be ready in two hours
Beyonce: Ok
I dressed Tavia in something comfortable because I knew we was gona be walking around an huge amusement park all day. Then it was my turn to get dressed and I searched high and low and through all of my clothes and shoes and realized I didn't have one pair of gym shoes so my choices were a 4inch heel a 5inch heel or a 6inch heel. I chose the five inch because it made my legs look longer in my jeans. I guess I had gotten dressed just in time because as soon as I fasten my shoe Shawn was knocking at the door.
Shawn: Are yall ready
Beyonce: Yep!!
Tavia: Yep!!
Shawn: Are you really gona wear heels to an amusement park
Beyonce: Yes I have to keep it cute
Shawn: Ok well lets go
The amusement park was soooo much fun and Tavia looked like she really enjoyed herself. I must admit I haven't had that much fun in a long time. Tavia had road all the kiddy rides at lease twice and I road a few rides and so did Shawn. Then we played a few mini games like the one where you had to make a certain amount of baskets to win a prize and I guess Shawn was trying to show off because he won me and Tavia a huge stuffed animal. We left the amusement park at closing time which was 9 and then we went to dinner.
*Dinner*
Shawn: What kind of place is this
Beyonce: A place where we can take a 5 year old and not have to worry about anything like spills an accidents
Shawn: Ok
After we finished eating Tavia went to play some games while Shawn and I talked.
Beyonce: Shawn thank you for today Tavia and I really needed this
Shawn: No problem
Beyonce: Ok whats going on you are just a little to nice
Shawn: *laughs* Nothing I just wanted to get your mind off of everything. I know you're going through some tough shit right now
Beyonce: Yea I am
Shawn: Well look when your with me I want you know that you don't have to worry about anything
After he said that I couldn't help but to smile he had me smiling out from ear to ear and I really liked that about him. After dinner we went back home and Tavia had fell asleep in the car so Shawn carried her in while I carried the stuffed animals in. Then Shawn and I said our goodbyes and he left. After that day Shawn, Tavia and I spent almost everyday together for like three weeks and it was the best three weeks off my life. Shawn treated me like an equal and not and not like his property and I really liked that about him. Shawn an I became really good friends. During these three weeks I received a called from my lawyer and all charges against Idris was dropped which was ok with me because I was over what had happen. I mean like what's the point of still being made all the bruise and scars had disappeared so it was over with. Any who this is suppose to be a special night, at lease that's what Shawn had said. He told me to meet him at some type of fancy restaurant so I dressed in a brand new dress I just recently bought and some bad as heels. I decided to drop Tavia off at my sisters house because I had no idea of what Shawn had planned for us and I didn't want Tavia out all night. When I arrived at the restaurant the first thing I noticed was how beautiful this place was and then I notice Shawn at the table with a little girl who looked like she was around 11 or 12.
Beyonce: Hi. Shawn
Shawn: Hey Bey have a seat I want you meet my daughter Jessica she is 10 years old and she is gonna be living with me for now own
Beyonce: Oh. Hi Jessica I'm Beyonce
Jessica: Hi. Dad I have to go to the restroom
Shawn: Go head
Beyonce: You didn't tell you had a daughter
Shawn: I just did
Beyonce: You know what I mean
Shawn: *laughs* Thats because I wanted to see where this relationship was going first.
Beyonce: Relationship?
Shawn: Yea Beyonce these past few weeks have been amazing and I'm really starting to fall for you and I was kind of hoping you felt the same way about me.
Beyonce: Umm I-
Jessica: I'm back.
Thank god Jessica came back when she did because I didn't know what to say to Shawn. I really don't what to think of him. I mean I'm starting to have feeling for him but I'm stilled married and in love with my husband. For the rest of the night we talked and joke around with Jessica and it was an awkwardness between Shawn and I that we both tried to ignore. By the end of the night I had falling completely in love with Jessica she was an angle and she reminded me of Tavia. So I asked her if she wanted to spend a night with me and Tavia and of course she said yea. So I picked up Tavia from my sister house and brought both girls back to my place and we had girls night. We had soooo much fun we did each other hair and nails. We played games and made cupcakes and cookies then I tucked both of them into bed around 2am. I knew it was late but I thought it was ok because we was having a slumber party. The next morning the door bell rung and I thought it was Shawn looking for Jessica so I just opened the door and booooy was I wrong.
Beyonce: What are you doing here
Idris: Please can we just talk please
Everything in my mind was telling me to close the door but my heart was saying yes so I followed my heart.
Beyonce: Come in but be quiet
Idris: Thanks
Idris and I sat on the couch and he started talking to me.
Idris: Listen Beyonce I am sooo sorry about everything. I don't know what had gotten into me, I guess when I found about the pills all the bad in me had woken up. But anyway I've been going to classes and I've changed a lot and I miss you. I miss you and Tavia and I really want both of you to come back home. If you do I promise not to raise another hand at you
After he said that all my feelings for him came rushing back at once and I was completely speechless and confused because I was really starting to fall for Shawn but Idris was my husband and I still loved him with all my hear. Then the unthinkable happened his kissed me like never before. I couldn't believe this it was like this kiss was taking me into a fantasy world. Until Shawn came in, then my heart dropped. I broke the kiss and looked into Shawn's eyes and it looked like he just lost his bestfriend and I felt terrible.
Beyonce: Shawn?
Shawn: Look I just came to get Jessica don't mind me
Shawn walked in Tavia room to get Jessica and I tried to follow him but Idris stopped me.
Idris: He said don't mind him can we please finish what we started
Beyonce: I really need to leave right now
Idris: Okaaay well I see you later?
Beyonce: I'll call you
Idris: Ok
Idris left and soon after he did I saw Shawn and Jessica coming out of Tavia's room.
Beyonce: Can we please talk
Shawn: I don't feel like talking right now
Beyonce: Jessica could you please go wait in Tavia's room
Jessica: Ok
Shawn: I said I don't want to talk to you. I refuse to let you treat me like a fool.
Beyonce: But I'm not that kiss didn't mean anything
Shawn: Who are you trying to fool that kiss meant everything to you. I guess everything I said to you didn't mean anything-
I stopped him in mid-sentence and I kissed him. We kissed for about 12 seconds and he broke the kiss.
Shawn: Beyonce I don't want to be your second choice. You chose him before I walked in and we both know that. JESSICA COME ON LETS GO!!!
Beyonce: Shawn!!
Shawn: You are still welcome to stay here but he is not allowed over here.
Beyonce: Shawn I-
Shawn: Bye Beyonce
I wanted to stop him from walking out that door so bad but I'm still love Idris.
To Be Continued.......
Kelly and Solange was helping me unpack when my phone starting ringing.
Kelly: Who is that?
Solange: It's probably Idris
Beyonce: Actually its my mom
Now...
Beyonce: Hello?
MamaTina: Hey baby. How are you doing?
Beyonce: I'm good I've moved into a new home and we are settling in.
MamaTina: We?
Beyonce: Solo, Kelly and I they are helping me unpack
MamaTina: Well baby I just wanted to say I'm sorry about how I been acting its not your fault that he put his hands on you. I guess I just got caught up and forgot that I was a mother and that it is my job to keep you safe.
Beyonce: Momma I love you and thanks but I have to go I'm kinda of busy.
MamaTina: Ok honey I love you too. Could you call me back before you go to bed I don't care what time
Beyonce: Sure if I'm not to tired
MamaTina: Ok
I don't know what my daddy said to her but what ever he said had to be pretty convincing. I mean she just totally had a change of heart. After about 5 hours everything was unpacked and Kelly and Solange was tired so they went home. I checked in on Tavia and she was still passed out. I wasn't tired I was depressed I mean I did just loose the love of my life and the father of my child. Even thought that baster hit me I still was in love with him. Was I wrong for that? Anyway after thinking about my life and how much it changed I just cried myself to sleep.
The next morning while Tavia and I was enjoying breakfast we got a surprise visitor.
Tavia: Who's at the door mommy
Beyonce: I don't know just finish eating I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
When I answered the door I didn't even ask who is because I already knew it was Shawn.
Shawn: You should really say who is before you open the door
Beyonce: I already knew it was you
Tavia: Hi Shawn!!
Shawn: Hi Tavia
Beyonce: Did you finish eating
Tavia: Yes!!
Shawn: Good now get dressed
Beyonce: What for?
Shawn: Because I wanna take ya'll out.
Beyonce: Shawn I don't know
Shawn: Its only an amusement park and dinner. I wanna show you how a queen should be treated
Beyonce: I still have a lot of cleaning to do and I few more boxes to unpack.
Shawn: Don't worry about my maid will take care of it for you
Beyonce: But-
Tavia: Please mommy
Shawn: Yea please mommy
Beyonce: *sighs* Ok
Tavia: Yaeee!!!
Shawn: Great be ready in two hours
Beyonce: Ok
I dressed Tavia in something comfortable because I knew we was gona be walking around an huge amusement park all day. Then it was my turn to get dressed and I searched high and low and through all of my clothes and shoes and realized I didn't have one pair of gym shoes so my choices were a 4inch heel a 5inch heel or a 6inch heel. I chose the five inch because it made my legs look longer in my jeans. I guess I had gotten dressed just in time because as soon as I fasten my shoe Shawn was knocking at the door.
Shawn: Are yall ready
Beyonce: Yep!!
Tavia: Yep!!
Shawn: Are you really gona wear heels to an amusement park
Beyonce: Yes I have to keep it cute
Shawn: Ok well lets go
The amusement park was soooo much fun and Tavia looked like she really enjoyed herself. I must admit I haven't had that much fun in a long time. Tavia had road all the kiddy rides at lease twice and I road a few rides and so did Shawn. Then we played a few mini games like the one where you had to make a certain amount of baskets to win a prize and I guess Shawn was trying to show off because he won me and Tavia a huge stuffed animal. We left the amusement park at closing time which was 9 and then we went to dinner.
*Dinner*
Shawn: What kind of place is this
Beyonce: A place where we can take a 5 year old and not have to worry about anything like spills an accidents
Shawn: Ok
After we finished eating Tavia went to play some games while Shawn and I talked.
Beyonce: Shawn thank you for today Tavia and I really needed this
Shawn: No problem
Beyonce: Ok whats going on you are just a little to nice
Shawn: *laughs* Nothing I just wanted to get your mind off of everything. I know you're going through some tough shit right now
Beyonce: Yea I am
Shawn: Well look when your with me I want you know that you don't have to worry about anything
After he said that I couldn't help but to smile he had me smiling out from ear to ear and I really liked that about him. After dinner we went back home and Tavia had fell asleep in the car so Shawn carried her in while I carried the stuffed animals in. Then Shawn and I said our goodbyes and he left. After that day Shawn, Tavia and I spent almost everyday together for like three weeks and it was the best three weeks off my life. Shawn treated me like an equal and not and not like his property and I really liked that about him. Shawn an I became really good friends. During these three weeks I received a called from my lawyer and all charges against Idris was dropped which was ok with me because I was over what had happen. I mean like what's the point of still being made all the bruise and scars had disappeared so it was over with. Any who this is suppose to be a special night, at lease that's what Shawn had said. He told me to meet him at some type of fancy restaurant so I dressed in a brand new dress I just recently bought and some bad as heels. I decided to drop Tavia off at my sisters house because I had no idea of what Shawn had planned for us and I didn't want Tavia out all night. When I arrived at the restaurant the first thing I noticed was how beautiful this place was and then I notice Shawn at the table with a little girl who looked like she was around 11 or 12.
Beyonce: Hi. Shawn
Shawn: Hey Bey have a seat I want you meet my daughter Jessica she is 10 years old and she is gonna be living with me for now own
Beyonce: Oh. Hi Jessica I'm Beyonce
Jessica: Hi. Dad I have to go to the restroom
Shawn: Go head
Beyonce: You didn't tell you had a daughter
Shawn: I just did
Beyonce: You know what I mean
Shawn: *laughs* Thats because I wanted to see where this relationship was going first.
Beyonce: Relationship?
Shawn: Yea Beyonce these past few weeks have been amazing and I'm really starting to fall for you and I was kind of hoping you felt the same way about me.
Beyonce: Umm I-
Jessica: I'm back.
Thank god Jessica came back when she did because I didn't know what to say to Shawn. I really don't what to think of him. I mean I'm starting to have feeling for him but I'm stilled married and in love with my husband. For the rest of the night we talked and joke around with Jessica and it was an awkwardness between Shawn and I that we both tried to ignore. By the end of the night I had falling completely in love with Jessica she was an angle and she reminded me of Tavia. So I asked her if she wanted to spend a night with me and Tavia and of course she said yea. So I picked up Tavia from my sister house and brought both girls back to my place and we had girls night. We had soooo much fun we did each other hair and nails. We played games and made cupcakes and cookies then I tucked both of them into bed around 2am. I knew it was late but I thought it was ok because we was having a slumber party. The next morning the door bell rung and I thought it was Shawn looking for Jessica so I just opened the door and booooy was I wrong.
Beyonce: What are you doing here
Idris: Please can we just talk please
Everything in my mind was telling me to close the door but my heart was saying yes so I followed my heart.
Beyonce: Come in but be quiet
Idris: Thanks
Idris and I sat on the couch and he started talking to me.
Idris: Listen Beyonce I am sooo sorry about everything. I don't know what had gotten into me, I guess when I found about the pills all the bad in me had woken up. But anyway I've been going to classes and I've changed a lot and I miss you. I miss you and Tavia and I really want both of you to come back home. If you do I promise not to raise another hand at you
After he said that all my feelings for him came rushing back at once and I was completely speechless and confused because I was really starting to fall for Shawn but Idris was my husband and I still loved him with all my hear. Then the unthinkable happened his kissed me like never before. I couldn't believe this it was like this kiss was taking me into a fantasy world. Until Shawn came in, then my heart dropped. I broke the kiss and looked into Shawn's eyes and it looked like he just lost his bestfriend and I felt terrible.
Beyonce: Shawn?
Shawn: Look I just came to get Jessica don't mind me
Shawn walked in Tavia room to get Jessica and I tried to follow him but Idris stopped me.
Idris: He said don't mind him can we please finish what we started
Beyonce: I really need to leave right now
Idris: Okaaay well I see you later?
Beyonce: I'll call you
Idris: Ok
Idris left and soon after he did I saw Shawn and Jessica coming out of Tavia's room.
Beyonce: Can we please talk
Shawn: I don't feel like talking right now
Beyonce: Jessica could you please go wait in Tavia's room
Jessica: Ok
Shawn: I said I don't want to talk to you. I refuse to let you treat me like a fool.
Beyonce: But I'm not that kiss didn't mean anything
Shawn: Who are you trying to fool that kiss meant everything to you. I guess everything I said to you didn't mean anything-
I stopped him in mid-sentence and I kissed him. We kissed for about 12 seconds and he broke the kiss.
Shawn: Beyonce I don't want to be your second choice. You chose him before I walked in and we both know that. JESSICA COME ON LETS GO!!!
Beyonce: Shawn!!
Shawn: You are still welcome to stay here but he is not allowed over here.
Beyonce: Shawn I-
Shawn: Bye Beyonce
I wanted to stop him from walking out that door so bad but I'm still love Idris.
To Be Continued.......
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Chapter 5 (Decisions)
Last Time:
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
Now..
Kathy: I'm here to talk to you about Tavia.
Beyonce: You are not taking my daughter away from me
Kathy: Mrs. Brooks please calm down, I don't want to take Tavia away from
Beyonce: Ch-
Kathy: The decision is yours. Living with your husband is not a safe place for you or Tavia. Now I can't control if you leave or stay but I can control what happens to Tavia.
Beyonce: So what are you saying?
Kathy: I'm saying when the hospital release you tomorrow Tavia can't return to that home so you have to provide proof that Tavia will not be returning to that home and if you can't Tavia will have to come with us until you do.
Beyonce: What kind of proof?
Kathy: A rental agreement of your new home.
Beyonce: Thats it?
Kathy: Yep, and after that we will be making trips to your home a few times a week on different days and at different times just so we can make sure Tavia is actually living there. Now Mrs. Brooks I know Idris is Tavia's father but he is allowed no contact with her until he show proof of him receiving help. We only have Tavia's best entrees at heart. So with that being said the decision is yours you have to choose between your daughter and your husband.
Beyonce: What if I can't find a house by tomorrow
Kathy: You are smart I'm sure you can figure it out. You can contact your family members or friends. I'm sure they won't mind you staying with them until you can get yourself together.
Beyonce: What ever are we finish now
Kathy: Yes we are i'll see you tomorrow
Beyonce: What ever.
I can't believe this shit how am I suppose to find somewhere to go between now and tomorrow. Staying with my mom is out of the question and Kelly lives with her mom so that wont work either. Ugggg Oh my god this can't be happening.
Mathew: Knock knock can I come in
Beyonce: Sure daddy
Mathew: Hey baby how are you feeling
Beyonce: Horrible.
Mathew: How many times has he hit you
Beyonce: A few
Mathew: And your just not telling your mom and I about it
Beyonce: I told mom and she said I have to stop pissing him off
Mathew: She said WHAT!!!
Beyonce: Dad please don't yell you are gona wake up Tavia
Mathew: Beyonce I didn't raise you like this. I thought I raise a strong women.
Beyonce: Daddy you did
Mathew: I can't tell you letting this fool treat your face like a punching bag. What is wrong with you Beyonce? I should you now for being so stupid you have a daughter do you wont her to start thinking this is ok>
Beyonce: Daddy I'm sorry ok
Mathew: You don't have to apologize to me, what you should be doing is apologizing to yourself. Beyonce you gotta learn to love yourself
Shawn: Thats what I was telling her
Beyonce: What are you doing back here
Mathew: Who is this?
Shawn: I'm Shawn Carter sir I was the person who stopped her husband from killing her.
Mathew: Well thank you I really appreciate what you did for my daughter. Beyonce imma leave and let the two of you talk
Beyonce: Daddy you don't have to leave
Mathew: Actually I do I have a couple of choice words for your mother so i'll just see you tomorrow
Beyonce: Ok
My dad kissed Tavia on the forehead then he left. He was basically telling me the same thing Shawn was telling me earlier today and I think they are both right. When did I become so weak and stupid. My father didn't raise me like this and I have daughter who looks up to me.
Shawn: Beyonce I brought you and Tavia some food
Beyonce: Thank you but you really didn't have to
Shawn: I know but I wanted to
Beyonce: Well thanks
Shawn: I see you took my advice and look at yourself in the mirror
Beyonce: And how do you know that
Shawn: Because I see my mirror broken on the floor on the other side of the room
Beyonce: I'm sorry about that I'll get you another one I promise
Shawn: *laughs* Don't worry about it I knew you would probably do that.
Beyonce: I was thinking about what you said and you are right. I need to leave him but I don't want to press charges so I'm just gonna move out his house tomorrow when I get out of here.
Shawn: Well I'm happy you made up your mind. You're making the right decision Beyonce.
Beyonce: Thanks
Shawn: So what made you change your mind
Beyonce: CPS said they are gona take Tavia away from me if I don't find a new place to stay without Idris by tomorrow.
Shawn: So where are you gonna stay
Beyonce: Honestly I don't know
Shawn: Well I still have my guest house you can stay in for as long as you want
Beyonce: Normally I would turn down the offer but I have to do this for Tavia so thank you
Shawn: No problem. But I should go I gotta get the guest house ready for you
Beyonce: Ok!!
After Shawn left I woke Tavia up so we can eat and then we took a walk around the hospital she wanted to go look at babies. Then we went to the cafeteria and got some ice-cream and return to the room and feel asleep. The next morning the CPA lady and Shawn came back and we explained to her the situation and she approved thank god. Then Shawn and I went to Idris house to pack up my things before he is released out of jail. Kelly and Solo said they was coming over to help Shawn and I with the packing but all they was doing was talking and playing with Tavia which was ok I guess.
Kelly: Can Solange and I talk to you for a minute Bey
Beyonce: Sure!! Shawn could you start bringing the boxes out of Tavia's room upstairs
Shawn:Sure
Beyonce: What's up
Kelly and Solange had a heart to heart with me about the whole situation and I couldn't believe what they where saying to me it caused me to break completely down. I knew they was saying it out of love but it still hurt my feeling but we talked for a good 20 minutes before Shawn came back and joined us in the living room.
Shawn: Are we ready to go
Beyonce: Everything in the truck that quick
Shawn: Yep!!
Beyonce: Well then I guess we are
We almost out the house and guess who walked in.... smh
Idris: What the hell ya'll doing in my house.
Solange: We was just leaving
Shawn: Look you need to watch your mouth around Tavia
Idris: Don't tell me how to speak around my daughter in my house muthafucking house
Shawn: I don't give a fu-
Beyonce: Shawn!! lets just leave. Come on Tavia
Shawn: Fine!!
Tavia: I hate you daddy
Beyonce: Tavia-
Idris: O so now you turned my daughter against me
Beyonce: Lets go ya'll
Idris: You not going anywhere with my daughter.
Beyonce: Look you see these papers.
Idris took the papers from me and started reading them
Beyonce: Right!!! So if you don't CPA to come take Tavia I suggest you move now
I guess Idris couldn't handle the fact the CPA would come get Tavia so he moved and let us out the door with out another word.
We arrived at Shawn's guesthouse in 20 minutes. Shawn helped us bring the boxes in then he said something about having some work to do so I told him thank you and he left. Tavia fell asleep in the car during the drive over here so I put in her new bedroom and I guess she was comfortable because she stayed sleep the whole time. As soon came out of Tavia's bedroom Kelly and Solange started questioning me about Shawn.
Kelly: So whats going on between you and Shawn
Beyonce: Nothing we are just friends and he is helping me with my music
Solange: Are you sure thats it
Beyonce: Yes I'm not even divorced yet
Kelly: And what do that mean? Idris is an asshole it wouldn't be called cheating
Beyonce: Kelly I'm not ready for another relationship right now. My face hasn't heeled yet. Its just gona be Tavia and I for a while now
Solange: Well I'm happy for you sis
Kelly: Yea me too
Beyonce: Thanks
Kelly and Solange was helping me unpack when my phone starting ringing.
Kelly: Who is that?
Solange: It's probably Idris
Beyonce: Actually its my mom
To Be Continued......
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
Now..
Kathy: I'm here to talk to you about Tavia.
Beyonce: You are not taking my daughter away from me
Kathy: Mrs. Brooks please calm down, I don't want to take Tavia away from
Beyonce: Ch-
Kathy: The decision is yours. Living with your husband is not a safe place for you or Tavia. Now I can't control if you leave or stay but I can control what happens to Tavia.
Beyonce: So what are you saying?
Kathy: I'm saying when the hospital release you tomorrow Tavia can't return to that home so you have to provide proof that Tavia will not be returning to that home and if you can't Tavia will have to come with us until you do.
Beyonce: What kind of proof?
Kathy: A rental agreement of your new home.
Beyonce: Thats it?
Kathy: Yep, and after that we will be making trips to your home a few times a week on different days and at different times just so we can make sure Tavia is actually living there. Now Mrs. Brooks I know Idris is Tavia's father but he is allowed no contact with her until he show proof of him receiving help. We only have Tavia's best entrees at heart. So with that being said the decision is yours you have to choose between your daughter and your husband.
Beyonce: What if I can't find a house by tomorrow
Kathy: You are smart I'm sure you can figure it out. You can contact your family members or friends. I'm sure they won't mind you staying with them until you can get yourself together.
Beyonce: What ever are we finish now
Kathy: Yes we are i'll see you tomorrow
Beyonce: What ever.
I can't believe this shit how am I suppose to find somewhere to go between now and tomorrow. Staying with my mom is out of the question and Kelly lives with her mom so that wont work either. Ugggg Oh my god this can't be happening.
Mathew: Knock knock can I come in
Beyonce: Sure daddy
Mathew: Hey baby how are you feeling
Beyonce: Horrible.
Mathew: How many times has he hit you
Beyonce: A few
Mathew: And your just not telling your mom and I about it
Beyonce: I told mom and she said I have to stop pissing him off
Mathew: She said WHAT!!!
Beyonce: Dad please don't yell you are gona wake up Tavia
Mathew: Beyonce I didn't raise you like this. I thought I raise a strong women.
Beyonce: Daddy you did
Mathew: I can't tell you letting this fool treat your face like a punching bag. What is wrong with you Beyonce? I should you now for being so stupid you have a daughter do you wont her to start thinking this is ok>
Beyonce: Daddy I'm sorry ok
Mathew: You don't have to apologize to me, what you should be doing is apologizing to yourself. Beyonce you gotta learn to love yourself
Shawn: Thats what I was telling her
Beyonce: What are you doing back here
Mathew: Who is this?
Shawn: I'm Shawn Carter sir I was the person who stopped her husband from killing her.
Mathew: Well thank you I really appreciate what you did for my daughter. Beyonce imma leave and let the two of you talk
Beyonce: Daddy you don't have to leave
Mathew: Actually I do I have a couple of choice words for your mother so i'll just see you tomorrow
Beyonce: Ok
My dad kissed Tavia on the forehead then he left. He was basically telling me the same thing Shawn was telling me earlier today and I think they are both right. When did I become so weak and stupid. My father didn't raise me like this and I have daughter who looks up to me.
Shawn: Beyonce I brought you and Tavia some food
Beyonce: Thank you but you really didn't have to
Shawn: I know but I wanted to
Beyonce: Well thanks
Shawn: I see you took my advice and look at yourself in the mirror
Beyonce: And how do you know that
Shawn: Because I see my mirror broken on the floor on the other side of the room
Beyonce: I'm sorry about that I'll get you another one I promise
Shawn: *laughs* Don't worry about it I knew you would probably do that.
Beyonce: I was thinking about what you said and you are right. I need to leave him but I don't want to press charges so I'm just gonna move out his house tomorrow when I get out of here.
Shawn: Well I'm happy you made up your mind. You're making the right decision Beyonce.
Beyonce: Thanks
Shawn: So what made you change your mind
Beyonce: CPS said they are gona take Tavia away from me if I don't find a new place to stay without Idris by tomorrow.
Shawn: So where are you gonna stay
Beyonce: Honestly I don't know
Shawn: Well I still have my guest house you can stay in for as long as you want
Beyonce: Normally I would turn down the offer but I have to do this for Tavia so thank you
Shawn: No problem. But I should go I gotta get the guest house ready for you
Beyonce: Ok!!
After Shawn left I woke Tavia up so we can eat and then we took a walk around the hospital she wanted to go look at babies. Then we went to the cafeteria and got some ice-cream and return to the room and feel asleep. The next morning the CPA lady and Shawn came back and we explained to her the situation and she approved thank god. Then Shawn and I went to Idris house to pack up my things before he is released out of jail. Kelly and Solo said they was coming over to help Shawn and I with the packing but all they was doing was talking and playing with Tavia which was ok I guess.
Kelly: Can Solange and I talk to you for a minute Bey
Beyonce: Sure!! Shawn could you start bringing the boxes out of Tavia's room upstairs
Shawn:Sure
Beyonce: What's up
Kelly and Solange had a heart to heart with me about the whole situation and I couldn't believe what they where saying to me it caused me to break completely down. I knew they was saying it out of love but it still hurt my feeling but we talked for a good 20 minutes before Shawn came back and joined us in the living room.
Shawn: Are we ready to go
Beyonce: Everything in the truck that quick
Shawn: Yep!!
Beyonce: Well then I guess we are
We almost out the house and guess who walked in.... smh
Idris: What the hell ya'll doing in my house.
Solange: We was just leaving
Shawn: Look you need to watch your mouth around Tavia
Idris: Don't tell me how to speak around my daughter in my house muthafucking house
Shawn: I don't give a fu-
Beyonce: Shawn!! lets just leave. Come on Tavia
Shawn: Fine!!
Tavia: I hate you daddy
Beyonce: Tavia-
Idris: O so now you turned my daughter against me
Beyonce: Lets go ya'll
Idris: You not going anywhere with my daughter.
Beyonce: Look you see these papers.
Idris took the papers from me and started reading them
Beyonce: Right!!! So if you don't CPA to come take Tavia I suggest you move now
I guess Idris couldn't handle the fact the CPA would come get Tavia so he moved and let us out the door with out another word.
We arrived at Shawn's guesthouse in 20 minutes. Shawn helped us bring the boxes in then he said something about having some work to do so I told him thank you and he left. Tavia fell asleep in the car during the drive over here so I put in her new bedroom and I guess she was comfortable because she stayed sleep the whole time. As soon came out of Tavia's bedroom Kelly and Solange started questioning me about Shawn.
Kelly: So whats going on between you and Shawn
Beyonce: Nothing we are just friends and he is helping me with my music
Solange: Are you sure thats it
Beyonce: Yes I'm not even divorced yet
Kelly: And what do that mean? Idris is an asshole it wouldn't be called cheating
Beyonce: Kelly I'm not ready for another relationship right now. My face hasn't heeled yet. Its just gona be Tavia and I for a while now
Solange: Well I'm happy for you sis
Kelly: Yea me too
Beyonce: Thanks
Kelly and Solange was helping me unpack when my phone starting ringing.
Kelly: Who is that?
Solange: It's probably Idris
Beyonce: Actually its my mom
To Be Continued......
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Chapter 4 (Is it over?)
Idris: Why the hell you running away? Did you fuck him or something?
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
A few days later
(Beyonce)
I was sitting on the couch watching TV talking to Tavia. This little girl is just like me sometimes.
Tavia: Mama! When daddy gets here can we all play the wii?
Beyonce: Sure.
Tavia: Whats wrong mommy?
Beyonce: Nothing I'm just tired..
Tavia: Well... How about we take a nap..
Beyonce: That will be brilliant.
We both fell asleep two hours later i got waken up by my phone it was my mama?
Beyonce: Hello?
Ms.Tina: Hey hunny. Whats going on?
I didn't want my mother in my business but she is my mother.
Beyonce: Well mom he hit me..
Ms. Tina: What did you do?
Beyonce: What you mean what i do....
Ms. Tina: You must have done something to piss him off.
Beyonce: Ok so what that still don't give him a right to hit me
Tina: So wat are you trying to say? Are you about to leave him
Beyonce: Maybe
Tina: Beyonce listen to me you have to suck it up and just be a good wife he takes good care of you and Tavia. He treats both of you like queens
Beyonce: I know but he still put his hands on me and he did it more then once. I don't need Tavia seeing me beat and bruised up.
Tina: Well stop pissing him off
Beyonce: You know what... I shouldn't even have told you BYE.
I know I was wrong for hanging up on her but she just pissed me off. As soon as i turned the tv off Idris walked around the corner and he look piss. He just picked up Tavia and took her to her room. Came back in mad as ever. I already knew what was up and I wasn't about to let him beat my ass again. I am not his child.
Idris: So WTF was your mother about to do?
Beyonce: I mean i thought she would have my back but she says you were right. CH....
Idris: So what now you about to tell you daddy? What he gonna do huh.
Idris started yelling and cussin me out. I got madder and madder all I could do was cuss him back out.
Idris: *yelling louder and louder* This is OUR relationship. DON"T tell no one what goes on between us.
Beyonce: YOU TELL THAT BITCH YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIEND EVERYTHING.
Idris: Who Shelby? She is not a bitch
Beyonce: YESS
Idris started to piss me off. He started to walk around and he walk towards me with force and punch the shit out of my ass and i started crying and got up and walked towards the bathroom and wiped my face and came back where he was and i punch his ass back and we started fighting. He finally got hold of me and started choking me.I was loosing breath then suddenly I kicked his ass in his balls. He bended down holding them and I had on some thick combat boots and I kick his ass in the stomach. I started throwing vases at his head. He started to fall down and he was laying there helpless i just kept hitting him until i felt someone grab me and pick me up. It was a deep baritone voice telling me to " CALM DOWN BEYONCE" I look up and it was Shawn. He put me on the couch and I calm down a little.
Beyonce: How did you get here?
Shawn: I came to pick up something that idris told me to come get and when I got here the door was open and I heard glasses being broken.
Beyonce: Well you better get him before I kill him.
Shawn: *kicking him* I think he passed out after you threw the last vase at him.
Shawn kept trying to calm me down and after I was calm I called Kelly and asked to come over. With in 20 minutes the Solange and Kelly came running in. My sister Solange is crazier than I am that's why I didn't call her I didn't want her getting into any trouble.
Beyonce: Kelly why did you call Solange
Kelly: We was together. OMGGGGGGG Bey Look at your face..
Solange: DAMMMMMM you did that?
Beyonce: He hit me twice so i got mad and hit his ass back and he started fighting. he choke me and i kicked him in the balls and he fell and i started beat his ass.
Shawn: and she was throwing vases at him.
Kelly: Did ya'll check to see if he was alive
Solange: Who gives a flying fuck. For his sake he better be dead because if he wake up imma beat his ass
Beyonce: Calm down Solo I already took care of it and yes Kelly he is breathing
Shawn: Beyonce why don't you go pack a bag and you and Tavia can stay with me a couple of days.
Beyonce: I couldn't do that
Shawn: Its cool I have a guess house you can stay in.
Kelly: Bey you really need to go pack because when he wakes up he just might kill you
Solange: I will fuck him up
Beyonce: Solo please stop and I'll go pack
It took me about 15 minutes to pack and before I knew it I was inside of Jay's car and was about to pull off but then I realized I left my phone in the house.
Beyonce: Wait I left my phone I'll be right back. Tavia sit here with Shawn I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
I went back into the house and started looking for my phone. I went back into the room where the fight had happen at and I noticed Idris wasn't there anymore so I got really scared and yelled outside for Shawn. Then I turned around and felt a fist to my face and that was all I remembered. When I woke I was in the hospital and Solange and Kelly was by my beside.
Beyonce: What happen
Solange: OHMYGOD Thank god you are ok
Beyonce: Solange where is Tavia
Kelly: She is with your mother. They went down stairs to get something to eat.
I felt like shit. My head was pounding and my face felt like somebody rode over it with a car.
Beyonce: Do one all ya'll have a mirror
Kelly: Ummm Bey maybe you should just relax
Beyonce: What the hell you mean relax what happen to me and please give me a mirror
Solange: Fine!!! Here *handing Bey the mirror*
I looked a my face and immediately started crying. How could I be so stupid and my daughter seen my like this. I just couldn't believe my eyes. Then all the memories of that night started rushing back.
Beyonce: *crying* Oh my god where is Shawn
Kelly: In jail
Beyonce: In jail for what
Solange: He beat the shit out of Idris.
Beyonce: Where is he
Solange: Idris is in jail for beating the shit out of you.
Kelly: But all of the charges has been dropped against Shawn he should be out by tomorrow morning
Beyonce: And Idris??
Kelly: Thats up to you Beyonce. If you decided to not press chargers he will be a free man.
Tavia: Mommy!!!!!
Beyonce: *sniffs and looks at Tavia* Hi baby
Tavia: *crying* Your face mommy
Beyonce: I know baby I'm ok how about if you go home with Kelly and auntie Solange and I'll see you tomorrow.
Tavia: No mommy I want to stay here with you
I hugged Tavia and we cried together. I was soooo embarrassed how could I let my baby see me like this. After a while Tavia had fell asleep and Kelly, Solo and my mom had left. My mom didn't even say anything to me I guess she was mad or something I really don't know and I really didn't care. Soon after they left I fell asleep too with Tavia lying on my chest. I slept for about 1 or 2 hours then I was woken up by a male voice and it scared the shit out of me. How you doing, he said to me
Beyonce: I'm ok. And thanks for everything
Shawn: Its cool, I don't believe in a man putting his hands on a women he got what he deserved.
Beyonce: I guess
Shawn: So are you gona press charges because if not he is getting out tomorrow
Beyonce: I thought you was getting out tomorrow
Shawn: Well things change. So are you gonna press charges
Beyonce: Tavia needs her father in her life
Shawn: Are you serious right now
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn: BEYONCE LOOK AT YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: Could you please keep your voice down
Shawn: I went to jail for you last night and you're telling me it was for nothing
Beyonce: I'm sorry you went to jail but he is my husband. My mom is right I have to stop pissing him off.
Shawn: *reaching into his pocket and pulled out a mirror* Look at yourself Beyonce. Do you see what he did to you
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please get that out my face
Shawn: Not until you look at your self
Beyonce: I already did
Shawn: I wont you to look at yourself again and tell me what you see
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please stop!!
Shawn: Fine!! I'll leave this mirror here for you. You look at yourself when you get ready. Beyonce you have to learn to love yourself
Beyonce: I do love myself
Shawn: You can't love yourself if you are still with someone who is treating your face like a punching bag. You know your daughter is gona remember this when she get older
Beyonce: Can you please leave
Shawn: I was just about to. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need anything
Beyonce: What ever
Shawn: Ok then. Bye
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
To Be Continued........
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
A few days later
(Beyonce)
I was sitting on the couch watching TV talking to Tavia. This little girl is just like me sometimes.
Tavia: Mama! When daddy gets here can we all play the wii?
Beyonce: Sure.
Tavia: Whats wrong mommy?
Beyonce: Nothing I'm just tired..
Tavia: Well... How about we take a nap..
Beyonce: That will be brilliant.
We both fell asleep two hours later i got waken up by my phone it was my mama?
Beyonce: Hello?
Ms.Tina: Hey hunny. Whats going on?
I didn't want my mother in my business but she is my mother.
Beyonce: Well mom he hit me..
Ms. Tina: What did you do?
Beyonce: What you mean what i do....
Ms. Tina: You must have done something to piss him off.
Beyonce: Ok so what that still don't give him a right to hit me
Tina: So wat are you trying to say? Are you about to leave him
Beyonce: Maybe
Tina: Beyonce listen to me you have to suck it up and just be a good wife he takes good care of you and Tavia. He treats both of you like queens
Beyonce: I know but he still put his hands on me and he did it more then once. I don't need Tavia seeing me beat and bruised up.
Tina: Well stop pissing him off
Beyonce: You know what... I shouldn't even have told you BYE.
I know I was wrong for hanging up on her but she just pissed me off. As soon as i turned the tv off Idris walked around the corner and he look piss. He just picked up Tavia and took her to her room. Came back in mad as ever. I already knew what was up and I wasn't about to let him beat my ass again. I am not his child.
Idris: So WTF was your mother about to do?
Beyonce: I mean i thought she would have my back but she says you were right. CH....
Idris: So what now you about to tell you daddy? What he gonna do huh.
Idris started yelling and cussin me out. I got madder and madder all I could do was cuss him back out.
Idris: *yelling louder and louder* This is OUR relationship. DON"T tell no one what goes on between us.
Beyonce: YOU TELL THAT BITCH YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIEND EVERYTHING.
Idris: Who Shelby? She is not a bitch
Beyonce: YESS
Idris started to piss me off. He started to walk around and he walk towards me with force and punch the shit out of my ass and i started crying and got up and walked towards the bathroom and wiped my face and came back where he was and i punch his ass back and we started fighting. He finally got hold of me and started choking me.I was loosing breath then suddenly I kicked his ass in his balls. He bended down holding them and I had on some thick combat boots and I kick his ass in the stomach. I started throwing vases at his head. He started to fall down and he was laying there helpless i just kept hitting him until i felt someone grab me and pick me up. It was a deep baritone voice telling me to " CALM DOWN BEYONCE" I look up and it was Shawn. He put me on the couch and I calm down a little.
Beyonce: How did you get here?
Shawn: I came to pick up something that idris told me to come get and when I got here the door was open and I heard glasses being broken.
Beyonce: Well you better get him before I kill him.
Shawn: *kicking him* I think he passed out after you threw the last vase at him.
Shawn kept trying to calm me down and after I was calm I called Kelly and asked to come over. With in 20 minutes the Solange and Kelly came running in. My sister Solange is crazier than I am that's why I didn't call her I didn't want her getting into any trouble.
Beyonce: Kelly why did you call Solange
Kelly: We was together. OMGGGGGGG Bey Look at your face..
Solange: DAMMMMMM you did that?
Beyonce: He hit me twice so i got mad and hit his ass back and he started fighting. he choke me and i kicked him in the balls and he fell and i started beat his ass.
Shawn: and she was throwing vases at him.
Kelly: Did ya'll check to see if he was alive
Solange: Who gives a flying fuck. For his sake he better be dead because if he wake up imma beat his ass
Beyonce: Calm down Solo I already took care of it and yes Kelly he is breathing
Shawn: Beyonce why don't you go pack a bag and you and Tavia can stay with me a couple of days.
Beyonce: I couldn't do that
Shawn: Its cool I have a guess house you can stay in.
Kelly: Bey you really need to go pack because when he wakes up he just might kill you
Solange: I will fuck him up
Beyonce: Solo please stop and I'll go pack
It took me about 15 minutes to pack and before I knew it I was inside of Jay's car and was about to pull off but then I realized I left my phone in the house.
Beyonce: Wait I left my phone I'll be right back. Tavia sit here with Shawn I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
I went back into the house and started looking for my phone. I went back into the room where the fight had happen at and I noticed Idris wasn't there anymore so I got really scared and yelled outside for Shawn. Then I turned around and felt a fist to my face and that was all I remembered. When I woke I was in the hospital and Solange and Kelly was by my beside.
Beyonce: What happen
Solange: OHMYGOD Thank god you are ok
Beyonce: Solange where is Tavia
Kelly: She is with your mother. They went down stairs to get something to eat.
I felt like shit. My head was pounding and my face felt like somebody rode over it with a car.
Beyonce: Do one all ya'll have a mirror
Kelly: Ummm Bey maybe you should just relax
Beyonce: What the hell you mean relax what happen to me and please give me a mirror
Solange: Fine!!! Here *handing Bey the mirror*
I looked a my face and immediately started crying. How could I be so stupid and my daughter seen my like this. I just couldn't believe my eyes. Then all the memories of that night started rushing back.
Beyonce: *crying* Oh my god where is Shawn
Kelly: In jail
Beyonce: In jail for what
Solange: He beat the shit out of Idris.
Beyonce: Where is he
Solange: Idris is in jail for beating the shit out of you.
Kelly: But all of the charges has been dropped against Shawn he should be out by tomorrow morning
Beyonce: And Idris??
Kelly: Thats up to you Beyonce. If you decided to not press chargers he will be a free man.
Tavia: Mommy!!!!!
Beyonce: *sniffs and looks at Tavia* Hi baby
Tavia: *crying* Your face mommy
Beyonce: I know baby I'm ok how about if you go home with Kelly and auntie Solange and I'll see you tomorrow.
Tavia: No mommy I want to stay here with you
I hugged Tavia and we cried together. I was soooo embarrassed how could I let my baby see me like this. After a while Tavia had fell asleep and Kelly, Solo and my mom had left. My mom didn't even say anything to me I guess she was mad or something I really don't know and I really didn't care. Soon after they left I fell asleep too with Tavia lying on my chest. I slept for about 1 or 2 hours then I was woken up by a male voice and it scared the shit out of me. How you doing, he said to me
Beyonce: I'm ok. And thanks for everything
Shawn: Its cool, I don't believe in a man putting his hands on a women he got what he deserved.
Beyonce: I guess
Shawn: So are you gona press charges because if not he is getting out tomorrow
Beyonce: I thought you was getting out tomorrow
Shawn: Well things change. So are you gonna press charges
Beyonce: Tavia needs her father in her life
Shawn: Are you serious right now
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn: BEYONCE LOOK AT YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: Could you please keep your voice down
Shawn: I went to jail for you last night and you're telling me it was for nothing
Beyonce: I'm sorry you went to jail but he is my husband. My mom is right I have to stop pissing him off.
Shawn: *reaching into his pocket and pulled out a mirror* Look at yourself Beyonce. Do you see what he did to you
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please get that out my face
Shawn: Not until you look at your self
Beyonce: I already did
Shawn: I wont you to look at yourself again and tell me what you see
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please stop!!
Shawn: Fine!! I'll leave this mirror here for you. You look at yourself when you get ready. Beyonce you have to learn to love yourself
Beyonce: I do love myself
Shawn: You can't love yourself if you are still with someone who is treating your face like a punching bag. You know your daughter is gona remember this when she get older
Beyonce: Can you please leave
Shawn: I was just about to. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need anything
Beyonce: What ever
Shawn: Ok then. Bye
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
To Be Continued........
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