Last Time:
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
Now..
Kathy: I'm here to talk to you about Tavia.
Beyonce: You are not taking my daughter away from me
Kathy: Mrs. Brooks please calm down, I don't want to take Tavia away from
Beyonce: Ch-
Kathy: The decision is yours. Living with your husband is not a safe place for you or Tavia. Now I can't control if you leave or stay but I can control what happens to Tavia.
Beyonce: So what are you saying?
Kathy: I'm saying when the hospital release you tomorrow Tavia can't return to that home so you have to provide proof that Tavia will not be returning to that home and if you can't Tavia will have to come with us until you do.
Beyonce: What kind of proof?
Kathy: A rental agreement of your new home.
Beyonce: Thats it?
Kathy: Yep, and after that we will be making trips to your home a few times a week on different days and at different times just so we can make sure Tavia is actually living there. Now Mrs. Brooks I know Idris is Tavia's father but he is allowed no contact with her until he show proof of him receiving help. We only have Tavia's best entrees at heart. So with that being said the decision is yours you have to choose between your daughter and your husband.
Beyonce: What if I can't find a house by tomorrow
Kathy: You are smart I'm sure you can figure it out. You can contact your family members or friends. I'm sure they won't mind you staying with them until you can get yourself together.
Beyonce: What ever are we finish now
Kathy: Yes we are i'll see you tomorrow
Beyonce: What ever.
I can't believe this shit how am I suppose to find somewhere to go between now and tomorrow. Staying with my mom is out of the question and Kelly lives with her mom so that wont work either. Ugggg Oh my god this can't be happening.
Mathew: Knock knock can I come in
Beyonce: Sure daddy
Mathew: Hey baby how are you feeling
Beyonce: Horrible.
Mathew: How many times has he hit you
Beyonce: A few
Mathew: And your just not telling your mom and I about it
Beyonce: I told mom and she said I have to stop pissing him off
Mathew: She said WHAT!!!
Beyonce: Dad please don't yell you are gona wake up Tavia
Mathew: Beyonce I didn't raise you like this. I thought I raise a strong women.
Beyonce: Daddy you did
Mathew: I can't tell you letting this fool treat your face like a punching bag. What is wrong with you Beyonce? I should you now for being so stupid you have a daughter do you wont her to start thinking this is ok>
Beyonce: Daddy I'm sorry ok
Mathew: You don't have to apologize to me, what you should be doing is apologizing to yourself. Beyonce you gotta learn to love yourself
Shawn: Thats what I was telling her
Beyonce: What are you doing back here
Mathew: Who is this?
Shawn: I'm Shawn Carter sir I was the person who stopped her husband from killing her.
Mathew: Well thank you I really appreciate what you did for my daughter. Beyonce imma leave and let the two of you talk
Beyonce: Daddy you don't have to leave
Mathew: Actually I do I have a couple of choice words for your mother so i'll just see you tomorrow
Beyonce: Ok
My dad kissed Tavia on the forehead then he left. He was basically telling me the same thing Shawn was telling me earlier today and I think they are both right. When did I become so weak and stupid. My father didn't raise me like this and I have daughter who looks up to me.
Shawn: Beyonce I brought you and Tavia some food
Beyonce: Thank you but you really didn't have to
Shawn: I know but I wanted to
Beyonce: Well thanks
Shawn: I see you took my advice and look at yourself in the mirror
Beyonce: And how do you know that
Shawn: Because I see my mirror broken on the floor on the other side of the room
Beyonce: I'm sorry about that I'll get you another one I promise
Shawn: *laughs* Don't worry about it I knew you would probably do that.
Beyonce: I was thinking about what you said and you are right. I need to leave him but I don't want to press charges so I'm just gonna move out his house tomorrow when I get out of here.
Shawn: Well I'm happy you made up your mind. You're making the right decision Beyonce.
Beyonce: Thanks
Shawn: So what made you change your mind
Beyonce: CPS said they are gona take Tavia away from me if I don't find a new place to stay without Idris by tomorrow.
Shawn: So where are you gonna stay
Beyonce: Honestly I don't know
Shawn: Well I still have my guest house you can stay in for as long as you want
Beyonce: Normally I would turn down the offer but I have to do this for Tavia so thank you
Shawn: No problem. But I should go I gotta get the guest house ready for you
Beyonce: Ok!!
After Shawn left I woke Tavia up so we can eat and then we took a walk around the hospital she wanted to go look at babies. Then we went to the cafeteria and got some ice-cream and return to the room and feel asleep. The next morning the CPA lady and Shawn came back and we explained to her the situation and she approved thank god. Then Shawn and I went to Idris house to pack up my things before he is released out of jail. Kelly and Solo said they was coming over to help Shawn and I with the packing but all they was doing was talking and playing with Tavia which was ok I guess.
Kelly: Can Solange and I talk to you for a minute Bey
Beyonce: Sure!! Shawn could you start bringing the boxes out of Tavia's room upstairs
Shawn:Sure
Beyonce: What's up
Kelly and Solange had a heart to heart with me about the whole situation and I couldn't believe what they where saying to me it caused me to break completely down. I knew they was saying it out of love but it still hurt my feeling but we talked for a good 20 minutes before Shawn came back and joined us in the living room.
Shawn: Are we ready to go
Beyonce: Everything in the truck that quick
Shawn: Yep!!
Beyonce: Well then I guess we are
We almost out the house and guess who walked in.... smh
Idris: What the hell ya'll doing in my house.
Solange: We was just leaving
Shawn: Look you need to watch your mouth around Tavia
Idris: Don't tell me how to speak around my daughter in my house muthafucking house
Shawn: I don't give a fu-
Beyonce: Shawn!! lets just leave. Come on Tavia
Shawn: Fine!!
Tavia: I hate you daddy
Beyonce: Tavia-
Idris: O so now you turned my daughter against me
Beyonce: Lets go ya'll
Idris: You not going anywhere with my daughter.
Beyonce: Look you see these papers.
Idris took the papers from me and started reading them
Beyonce: Right!!! So if you don't CPA to come take Tavia I suggest you move now
I guess Idris couldn't handle the fact the CPA would come get Tavia so he moved and let us out the door with out another word.
We arrived at Shawn's guesthouse in 20 minutes. Shawn helped us bring the boxes in then he said something about having some work to do so I told him thank you and he left. Tavia fell asleep in the car during the drive over here so I put in her new bedroom and I guess she was comfortable because she stayed sleep the whole time. As soon came out of Tavia's bedroom Kelly and Solange started questioning me about Shawn.
Kelly: So whats going on between you and Shawn
Beyonce: Nothing we are just friends and he is helping me with my music
Solange: Are you sure thats it
Beyonce: Yes I'm not even divorced yet
Kelly: And what do that mean? Idris is an asshole it wouldn't be called cheating
Beyonce: Kelly I'm not ready for another relationship right now. My face hasn't heeled yet. Its just gona be Tavia and I for a while now
Solange: Well I'm happy for you sis
Kelly: Yea me too
Beyonce: Thanks
Kelly and Solange was helping me unpack when my phone starting ringing.
Kelly: Who is that?
Solange: It's probably Idris
Beyonce: Actually its my mom
To Be Continued......
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Chapter 4 (Is it over?)
Idris: Why the hell you running away? Did you fuck him or something?
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
A few days later
(Beyonce)
I was sitting on the couch watching TV talking to Tavia. This little girl is just like me sometimes.
Tavia: Mama! When daddy gets here can we all play the wii?
Beyonce: Sure.
Tavia: Whats wrong mommy?
Beyonce: Nothing I'm just tired..
Tavia: Well... How about we take a nap..
Beyonce: That will be brilliant.
We both fell asleep two hours later i got waken up by my phone it was my mama?
Beyonce: Hello?
Ms.Tina: Hey hunny. Whats going on?
I didn't want my mother in my business but she is my mother.
Beyonce: Well mom he hit me..
Ms. Tina: What did you do?
Beyonce: What you mean what i do....
Ms. Tina: You must have done something to piss him off.
Beyonce: Ok so what that still don't give him a right to hit me
Tina: So wat are you trying to say? Are you about to leave him
Beyonce: Maybe
Tina: Beyonce listen to me you have to suck it up and just be a good wife he takes good care of you and Tavia. He treats both of you like queens
Beyonce: I know but he still put his hands on me and he did it more then once. I don't need Tavia seeing me beat and bruised up.
Tina: Well stop pissing him off
Beyonce: You know what... I shouldn't even have told you BYE.
I know I was wrong for hanging up on her but she just pissed me off. As soon as i turned the tv off Idris walked around the corner and he look piss. He just picked up Tavia and took her to her room. Came back in mad as ever. I already knew what was up and I wasn't about to let him beat my ass again. I am not his child.
Idris: So WTF was your mother about to do?
Beyonce: I mean i thought she would have my back but she says you were right. CH....
Idris: So what now you about to tell you daddy? What he gonna do huh.
Idris started yelling and cussin me out. I got madder and madder all I could do was cuss him back out.
Idris: *yelling louder and louder* This is OUR relationship. DON"T tell no one what goes on between us.
Beyonce: YOU TELL THAT BITCH YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIEND EVERYTHING.
Idris: Who Shelby? She is not a bitch
Beyonce: YESS
Idris started to piss me off. He started to walk around and he walk towards me with force and punch the shit out of my ass and i started crying and got up and walked towards the bathroom and wiped my face and came back where he was and i punch his ass back and we started fighting. He finally got hold of me and started choking me.I was loosing breath then suddenly I kicked his ass in his balls. He bended down holding them and I had on some thick combat boots and I kick his ass in the stomach. I started throwing vases at his head. He started to fall down and he was laying there helpless i just kept hitting him until i felt someone grab me and pick me up. It was a deep baritone voice telling me to " CALM DOWN BEYONCE" I look up and it was Shawn. He put me on the couch and I calm down a little.
Beyonce: How did you get here?
Shawn: I came to pick up something that idris told me to come get and when I got here the door was open and I heard glasses being broken.
Beyonce: Well you better get him before I kill him.
Shawn: *kicking him* I think he passed out after you threw the last vase at him.
Shawn kept trying to calm me down and after I was calm I called Kelly and asked to come over. With in 20 minutes the Solange and Kelly came running in. My sister Solange is crazier than I am that's why I didn't call her I didn't want her getting into any trouble.
Beyonce: Kelly why did you call Solange
Kelly: We was together. OMGGGGGGG Bey Look at your face..
Solange: DAMMMMMM you did that?
Beyonce: He hit me twice so i got mad and hit his ass back and he started fighting. he choke me and i kicked him in the balls and he fell and i started beat his ass.
Shawn: and she was throwing vases at him.
Kelly: Did ya'll check to see if he was alive
Solange: Who gives a flying fuck. For his sake he better be dead because if he wake up imma beat his ass
Beyonce: Calm down Solo I already took care of it and yes Kelly he is breathing
Shawn: Beyonce why don't you go pack a bag and you and Tavia can stay with me a couple of days.
Beyonce: I couldn't do that
Shawn: Its cool I have a guess house you can stay in.
Kelly: Bey you really need to go pack because when he wakes up he just might kill you
Solange: I will fuck him up
Beyonce: Solo please stop and I'll go pack
It took me about 15 minutes to pack and before I knew it I was inside of Jay's car and was about to pull off but then I realized I left my phone in the house.
Beyonce: Wait I left my phone I'll be right back. Tavia sit here with Shawn I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
I went back into the house and started looking for my phone. I went back into the room where the fight had happen at and I noticed Idris wasn't there anymore so I got really scared and yelled outside for Shawn. Then I turned around and felt a fist to my face and that was all I remembered. When I woke I was in the hospital and Solange and Kelly was by my beside.
Beyonce: What happen
Solange: OHMYGOD Thank god you are ok
Beyonce: Solange where is Tavia
Kelly: She is with your mother. They went down stairs to get something to eat.
I felt like shit. My head was pounding and my face felt like somebody rode over it with a car.
Beyonce: Do one all ya'll have a mirror
Kelly: Ummm Bey maybe you should just relax
Beyonce: What the hell you mean relax what happen to me and please give me a mirror
Solange: Fine!!! Here *handing Bey the mirror*
I looked a my face and immediately started crying. How could I be so stupid and my daughter seen my like this. I just couldn't believe my eyes. Then all the memories of that night started rushing back.
Beyonce: *crying* Oh my god where is Shawn
Kelly: In jail
Beyonce: In jail for what
Solange: He beat the shit out of Idris.
Beyonce: Where is he
Solange: Idris is in jail for beating the shit out of you.
Kelly: But all of the charges has been dropped against Shawn he should be out by tomorrow morning
Beyonce: And Idris??
Kelly: Thats up to you Beyonce. If you decided to not press chargers he will be a free man.
Tavia: Mommy!!!!!
Beyonce: *sniffs and looks at Tavia* Hi baby
Tavia: *crying* Your face mommy
Beyonce: I know baby I'm ok how about if you go home with Kelly and auntie Solange and I'll see you tomorrow.
Tavia: No mommy I want to stay here with you
I hugged Tavia and we cried together. I was soooo embarrassed how could I let my baby see me like this. After a while Tavia had fell asleep and Kelly, Solo and my mom had left. My mom didn't even say anything to me I guess she was mad or something I really don't know and I really didn't care. Soon after they left I fell asleep too with Tavia lying on my chest. I slept for about 1 or 2 hours then I was woken up by a male voice and it scared the shit out of me. How you doing, he said to me
Beyonce: I'm ok. And thanks for everything
Shawn: Its cool, I don't believe in a man putting his hands on a women he got what he deserved.
Beyonce: I guess
Shawn: So are you gona press charges because if not he is getting out tomorrow
Beyonce: I thought you was getting out tomorrow
Shawn: Well things change. So are you gonna press charges
Beyonce: Tavia needs her father in her life
Shawn: Are you serious right now
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn: BEYONCE LOOK AT YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: Could you please keep your voice down
Shawn: I went to jail for you last night and you're telling me it was for nothing
Beyonce: I'm sorry you went to jail but he is my husband. My mom is right I have to stop pissing him off.
Shawn: *reaching into his pocket and pulled out a mirror* Look at yourself Beyonce. Do you see what he did to you
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please get that out my face
Shawn: Not until you look at your self
Beyonce: I already did
Shawn: I wont you to look at yourself again and tell me what you see
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please stop!!
Shawn: Fine!! I'll leave this mirror here for you. You look at yourself when you get ready. Beyonce you have to learn to love yourself
Beyonce: I do love myself
Shawn: You can't love yourself if you are still with someone who is treating your face like a punching bag. You know your daughter is gona remember this when she get older
Beyonce: Can you please leave
Shawn: I was just about to. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need anything
Beyonce: What ever
Shawn: Ok then. Bye
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
To Be Continued........
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
A few days later
(Beyonce)
I was sitting on the couch watching TV talking to Tavia. This little girl is just like me sometimes.
Tavia: Mama! When daddy gets here can we all play the wii?
Beyonce: Sure.
Tavia: Whats wrong mommy?
Beyonce: Nothing I'm just tired..
Tavia: Well... How about we take a nap..
Beyonce: That will be brilliant.
We both fell asleep two hours later i got waken up by my phone it was my mama?
Beyonce: Hello?
Ms.Tina: Hey hunny. Whats going on?
I didn't want my mother in my business but she is my mother.
Beyonce: Well mom he hit me..
Ms. Tina: What did you do?
Beyonce: What you mean what i do....
Ms. Tina: You must have done something to piss him off.
Beyonce: Ok so what that still don't give him a right to hit me
Tina: So wat are you trying to say? Are you about to leave him
Beyonce: Maybe
Tina: Beyonce listen to me you have to suck it up and just be a good wife he takes good care of you and Tavia. He treats both of you like queens
Beyonce: I know but he still put his hands on me and he did it more then once. I don't need Tavia seeing me beat and bruised up.
Tina: Well stop pissing him off
Beyonce: You know what... I shouldn't even have told you BYE.
I know I was wrong for hanging up on her but she just pissed me off. As soon as i turned the tv off Idris walked around the corner and he look piss. He just picked up Tavia and took her to her room. Came back in mad as ever. I already knew what was up and I wasn't about to let him beat my ass again. I am not his child.
Idris: So WTF was your mother about to do?
Beyonce: I mean i thought she would have my back but she says you were right. CH....
Idris: So what now you about to tell you daddy? What he gonna do huh.
Idris started yelling and cussin me out. I got madder and madder all I could do was cuss him back out.
Idris: *yelling louder and louder* This is OUR relationship. DON"T tell no one what goes on between us.
Beyonce: YOU TELL THAT BITCH YOU CALL YOUR BEST FRIEND EVERYTHING.
Idris: Who Shelby? She is not a bitch
Beyonce: YESS
Idris started to piss me off. He started to walk around and he walk towards me with force and punch the shit out of my ass and i started crying and got up and walked towards the bathroom and wiped my face and came back where he was and i punch his ass back and we started fighting. He finally got hold of me and started choking me.I was loosing breath then suddenly I kicked his ass in his balls. He bended down holding them and I had on some thick combat boots and I kick his ass in the stomach. I started throwing vases at his head. He started to fall down and he was laying there helpless i just kept hitting him until i felt someone grab me and pick me up. It was a deep baritone voice telling me to " CALM DOWN BEYONCE" I look up and it was Shawn. He put me on the couch and I calm down a little.
Beyonce: How did you get here?
Shawn: I came to pick up something that idris told me to come get and when I got here the door was open and I heard glasses being broken.
Beyonce: Well you better get him before I kill him.
Shawn: *kicking him* I think he passed out after you threw the last vase at him.
Shawn kept trying to calm me down and after I was calm I called Kelly and asked to come over. With in 20 minutes the Solange and Kelly came running in. My sister Solange is crazier than I am that's why I didn't call her I didn't want her getting into any trouble.
Beyonce: Kelly why did you call Solange
Kelly: We was together. OMGGGGGGG Bey Look at your face..
Solange: DAMMMMMM you did that?
Beyonce: He hit me twice so i got mad and hit his ass back and he started fighting. he choke me and i kicked him in the balls and he fell and i started beat his ass.
Shawn: and she was throwing vases at him.
Kelly: Did ya'll check to see if he was alive
Solange: Who gives a flying fuck. For his sake he better be dead because if he wake up imma beat his ass
Beyonce: Calm down Solo I already took care of it and yes Kelly he is breathing
Shawn: Beyonce why don't you go pack a bag and you and Tavia can stay with me a couple of days.
Beyonce: I couldn't do that
Shawn: Its cool I have a guess house you can stay in.
Kelly: Bey you really need to go pack because when he wakes up he just might kill you
Solange: I will fuck him up
Beyonce: Solo please stop and I'll go pack
It took me about 15 minutes to pack and before I knew it I was inside of Jay's car and was about to pull off but then I realized I left my phone in the house.
Beyonce: Wait I left my phone I'll be right back. Tavia sit here with Shawn I'll be right back
Tavia: Ok
I went back into the house and started looking for my phone. I went back into the room where the fight had happen at and I noticed Idris wasn't there anymore so I got really scared and yelled outside for Shawn. Then I turned around and felt a fist to my face and that was all I remembered. When I woke I was in the hospital and Solange and Kelly was by my beside.
Beyonce: What happen
Solange: OHMYGOD Thank god you are ok
Beyonce: Solange where is Tavia
Kelly: She is with your mother. They went down stairs to get something to eat.
I felt like shit. My head was pounding and my face felt like somebody rode over it with a car.
Beyonce: Do one all ya'll have a mirror
Kelly: Ummm Bey maybe you should just relax
Beyonce: What the hell you mean relax what happen to me and please give me a mirror
Solange: Fine!!! Here *handing Bey the mirror*
I looked a my face and immediately started crying. How could I be so stupid and my daughter seen my like this. I just couldn't believe my eyes. Then all the memories of that night started rushing back.
Beyonce: *crying* Oh my god where is Shawn
Kelly: In jail
Beyonce: In jail for what
Solange: He beat the shit out of Idris.
Beyonce: Where is he
Solange: Idris is in jail for beating the shit out of you.
Kelly: But all of the charges has been dropped against Shawn he should be out by tomorrow morning
Beyonce: And Idris??
Kelly: Thats up to you Beyonce. If you decided to not press chargers he will be a free man.
Tavia: Mommy!!!!!
Beyonce: *sniffs and looks at Tavia* Hi baby
Tavia: *crying* Your face mommy
Beyonce: I know baby I'm ok how about if you go home with Kelly and auntie Solange and I'll see you tomorrow.
Tavia: No mommy I want to stay here with you
I hugged Tavia and we cried together. I was soooo embarrassed how could I let my baby see me like this. After a while Tavia had fell asleep and Kelly, Solo and my mom had left. My mom didn't even say anything to me I guess she was mad or something I really don't know and I really didn't care. Soon after they left I fell asleep too with Tavia lying on my chest. I slept for about 1 or 2 hours then I was woken up by a male voice and it scared the shit out of me. How you doing, he said to me
Beyonce: I'm ok. And thanks for everything
Shawn: Its cool, I don't believe in a man putting his hands on a women he got what he deserved.
Beyonce: I guess
Shawn: So are you gona press charges because if not he is getting out tomorrow
Beyonce: I thought you was getting out tomorrow
Shawn: Well things change. So are you gonna press charges
Beyonce: Tavia needs her father in her life
Shawn: Are you serious right now
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn: BEYONCE LOOK AT YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: Could you please keep your voice down
Shawn: I went to jail for you last night and you're telling me it was for nothing
Beyonce: I'm sorry you went to jail but he is my husband. My mom is right I have to stop pissing him off.
Shawn: *reaching into his pocket and pulled out a mirror* Look at yourself Beyonce. Do you see what he did to you
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please get that out my face
Shawn: Not until you look at your self
Beyonce: I already did
Shawn: I wont you to look at yourself again and tell me what you see
Beyonce: *crying* I can't. Please stop!!
Shawn: Fine!! I'll leave this mirror here for you. You look at yourself when you get ready. Beyonce you have to learn to love yourself
Beyonce: I do love myself
Shawn: You can't love yourself if you are still with someone who is treating your face like a punching bag. You know your daughter is gona remember this when she get older
Beyonce: Can you please leave
Shawn: I was just about to. Don't be afraid to call me if you ever need anything
Beyonce: What ever
Shawn: Ok then. Bye
Beyonce: *silence*
Shawn walked out looking very disappointed. What he said was true but I can't leave Idris at lease not right now my mom as right I gotta stop pissing him off. I sat up in my bed and Tavia was still asleep on my chest. I grabbed the mirror Shawn left and looked at myself really good. Looking at myself caused me to become angry all over again so I took the mirror and through it across the room. Then I started crying again but I was interrupted by some lady in a business suit.
(Kathy) Hi I'm Kathy from child protective services.
(Beyonce) What the hell
To Be Continued........
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Chapter 3 (Pills & Thrills)
Because some of our readers was complaining about the way we are writing we are gona change it up a little
Last Time:
Beyonce you don't want anymore kids right now so you're stopping him from having more. Beyonce I love you but you really need to grow up. When Kelly said that I just continue to cry until my phone vibrated it was a text from a unknown number. I responded to the text by saying who if this? He responded Shawn. I thought to my self great I don't need any more confusion in my life
Now.....
I just ignored the text and told Kelly goodbye I really need to talk to Idris and Shawn isn't anything but trouble. After I pulled into my drive way I fixed my face because I didn't want Idris to know that I have been crying. I then got out my truck and walked into the house and I found Idris and Tavia lying on the couch sleeping with the television still going. So I carefully picked Tavia up and put her on the other couch and woke Idris up and sat right next to him.
Idris: Hey baby you home kind of early
Beyonce: Its after 10 but can we talk
Idris: Sure, about what
Beyonce: About us Idris.
Idris: What's wrong?
Beyonce: I'm sorry about everything. I'm sorry for taking you for granted and I'm sorry for always being angry.
Idris: I forgive you I just figured it was something hormonal
Beyonce: Idris I'm bored with my life
Idris: What do you mean bored
Beyonce: We never do anything spontaneous and I'm tired of being a house wife I have dreams and goals.
Idris: *sighs* Baby I don't wont you working. That make me feel like less of a man. Plus I make enough money for the three of us.
Beyonce: Its not about the money its about me and being able to do what I want to do.
Idris: *Sighs* Ok Bey tell me what do you want to do with your life
Idris and I had a long talk about everything that we was keeping from each other and it was kind of like we where meeting each other for the first time and I finally felt good. I told Idris everything from me being a fashion designer to singer. He laughed at it but he said if that's what I wanted to do he will support me. Even though I knew Idris was thinking that I would fail I didn't say anything because at lease he was listening. Our conversation lasted at lease a hour and a half.
Idris: I feel like we're dating for the first time *laughs*
Beyonce: I do too
Idris: I feel like we just met *tries to kiss Beyonce*
Beyonce: Stop!! I don't kiss on the first date
Idris: Ok well do you make love on the first date
Beyonce: I might
Idris: What do I have to do to turn that might into a yes
Beyonce: You can go put Tavia in the bed and meet me upstairs
Idris: Ok *kisses Beyonce on the check*
Idris took Tavia to her room and put her in the bed and I went into the bathroom inside of our bedroom. I looked it to my purse and grabbed the bottle of birth control pills out. I remembered that I had forgotten to take on yesterday so poured two in my hand and took the first one. Than before I could take the second one I heard Idris opening the bathroom door. It kind of scared the shit out of me so I dropped the pills and ran to the door before he could open it all the way and slammed it shut and locked it. Than I looked at all my pills on the bathroom floor and started picking them up.
Idris: Baby whats wrong why can't I come in
Beyonce: Ummm nothing I just want you to be suprised when I come out so go get in the bed.
Idris: Are you sure you ok and what did you drop
Beyonce: The aspirin I got a headache
Idris: Oh are you sure you're in the mood for this then
Beyonce: Yes baby!! Now go lay down
Idris: Ok
I rushed and picked up all the pills off the floor and put them in my purse. I'll put them in the trash tomorrow. I than took the pill I was suppose to take which was by the way the only one that didn't hit the floor. After that I rushed out the bathroom and got into bed with Idris and had what was the best sex of our relationship. Than we both fell asleep in each other arms. The next morning Idris had woken up first and was already cooking breakfast when I made it down the stairs.
Beyonce: Good morning baby
Idris: Good morning
Beyonce: Good morning Tavia
Tavia: Good morning mommy
Beyonce: It smells good in here what are you cooking
Idris: Blueberry pancakes, eggs and bacon
Beyonce: You must of read my mind that's exactly what I wanted
Idris: Could you set the table because its almost done
Beyonce: Sure
I did what Idris asked me to do and by the time I finished Idris was coming with the food. We all sat at the table and ate and enjoyed each other company. I was finally happy for the first time. I told Idris after breakfast I would call Shawn to see if he can help me out with my music and of course Idris didn't like it but he said it was fine with it. Then he got up and went upstairs to get ready for work. I washed the dishes cleaned Tavia up and than she and I went into the living room. I turned on the television for her than I called Shawn. Shawn and I talked for about an hour and he set up some studio time for me and I was soooooo happy. After I hung up with Shawn I heard Idris calling for me so I went upstairs to see what he wanted.
Beyonce: What is baby
Idris: What is this Beyonce
When he showed me one of my birth control pills my whole body felt numb. How could I be sooo stupid and careless. When I picking up the pills yesterday I must of missed one. SHITT!
Beyonce: Baby its an aspirin
Idris: Don't lie to me Beyonce.
Beyonce: I'm not lying
Idris: Beyonce aspirins are not red. You are lying
Beyonce: I'm not!! These are new Kelly gave me some yesterday she gave me about 5 to bring home. I took one yesterday and dropped the rest on the floor so I through them out before I came to breakfast. I must have missed one though
Idris: Are you sure these are aspirin
Beyonce: Yes baby
I walked up to Idris and gave him a kiss and tried to take the pill from him but he wouldn't let me he said he'll put it in the outside trash for me so Tavia can't get to them. I told him ok and he left for work. At lease I thought he did until he came into the house 8 hours later screaming.
Idris: BEYONCE WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!!!!!
Beyonce: Idris lower your voice before you wake up Tavia and what the hell are you yelling for!!
Idris: DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO IN MY HOUSE YOU FUCKING LIAR!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: What are you talking about? I never lied to you
Idris: Yes you did, this morning this aint no fucking aspirin its a birth control pill. Yo stupid ass had me thinking it was something wrong with my sperm count or something and in reality you ass was on the fucking pill
Idris is pissed as hell at me right now and I'm soo scared because I never seen him this mad before and I can't respond to him because- OCHhh!!!
Idris: Stupid ass!!!
I can't believe he just put his hands on me. He just slapped me to the grown and I guess I do deserve it. *crying*
Beyonce: I can't believe you just just slapped me
Idris: Yep and you lucky that's all I did. Now get yo ass up and fix yo face before my daughter come down here and see you like this
Idris went up stairs and got in the shower and I sat on the floor and cried. For about 15 minutes and I heard him coming down the stairs. He stood in front of me.
Idris: I thought I told you to get up
Beyonce: I was just about to
Idris: Come here let me help you up.
I was shocked at how nice he was being but I was super pissed at him but I let him help me up.
Idris: Look I am sorry I should of never put my hands on you I promise I will never do it again ok
Beyonce: Ok. I'm sorry for lying
Idris kissed me and took me up to the bathroom and help he fix me face. I had a red bruise on the right side of my face so I covered it with my hair. After I was finished he told me I looked beautiful and asked me how did it go with Shawn. When he said that my whole mood changed and not in good way. I was actually afraid to tell him the truth because of what he might do. Well he get angry again and try to hit me. Shit maybe I just ignore the question I need to talk to my mother anyway.
Beyonce: It went fine.
I tried to walk away but he stopped me
Idris: Why the hell you running away? Did you fuck him or something?
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
To Be Continued.....
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Last Time:
Beyonce you don't want anymore kids right now so you're stopping him from having more. Beyonce I love you but you really need to grow up. When Kelly said that I just continue to cry until my phone vibrated it was a text from a unknown number. I responded to the text by saying who if this? He responded Shawn. I thought to my self great I don't need any more confusion in my life
Now.....
I just ignored the text and told Kelly goodbye I really need to talk to Idris and Shawn isn't anything but trouble. After I pulled into my drive way I fixed my face because I didn't want Idris to know that I have been crying. I then got out my truck and walked into the house and I found Idris and Tavia lying on the couch sleeping with the television still going. So I carefully picked Tavia up and put her on the other couch and woke Idris up and sat right next to him.
Idris: Hey baby you home kind of early
Beyonce: Its after 10 but can we talk
Idris: Sure, about what
Beyonce: About us Idris.
Idris: What's wrong?
Beyonce: I'm sorry about everything. I'm sorry for taking you for granted and I'm sorry for always being angry.
Idris: I forgive you I just figured it was something hormonal
Beyonce: Idris I'm bored with my life
Idris: What do you mean bored
Beyonce: We never do anything spontaneous and I'm tired of being a house wife I have dreams and goals.
Idris: *sighs* Baby I don't wont you working. That make me feel like less of a man. Plus I make enough money for the three of us.
Beyonce: Its not about the money its about me and being able to do what I want to do.
Idris: *Sighs* Ok Bey tell me what do you want to do with your life
Idris and I had a long talk about everything that we was keeping from each other and it was kind of like we where meeting each other for the first time and I finally felt good. I told Idris everything from me being a fashion designer to singer. He laughed at it but he said if that's what I wanted to do he will support me. Even though I knew Idris was thinking that I would fail I didn't say anything because at lease he was listening. Our conversation lasted at lease a hour and a half.
Idris: I feel like we're dating for the first time *laughs*
Beyonce: I do too
Idris: I feel like we just met *tries to kiss Beyonce*
Beyonce: Stop!! I don't kiss on the first date
Idris: Ok well do you make love on the first date
Beyonce: I might
Idris: What do I have to do to turn that might into a yes
Beyonce: You can go put Tavia in the bed and meet me upstairs
Idris: Ok *kisses Beyonce on the check*
Idris took Tavia to her room and put her in the bed and I went into the bathroom inside of our bedroom. I looked it to my purse and grabbed the bottle of birth control pills out. I remembered that I had forgotten to take on yesterday so poured two in my hand and took the first one. Than before I could take the second one I heard Idris opening the bathroom door. It kind of scared the shit out of me so I dropped the pills and ran to the door before he could open it all the way and slammed it shut and locked it. Than I looked at all my pills on the bathroom floor and started picking them up.
Idris: Baby whats wrong why can't I come in
Beyonce: Ummm nothing I just want you to be suprised when I come out so go get in the bed.
Idris: Are you sure you ok and what did you drop
Beyonce: The aspirin I got a headache
Idris: Oh are you sure you're in the mood for this then
Beyonce: Yes baby!! Now go lay down
Idris: Ok
I rushed and picked up all the pills off the floor and put them in my purse. I'll put them in the trash tomorrow. I than took the pill I was suppose to take which was by the way the only one that didn't hit the floor. After that I rushed out the bathroom and got into bed with Idris and had what was the best sex of our relationship. Than we both fell asleep in each other arms. The next morning Idris had woken up first and was already cooking breakfast when I made it down the stairs.
Beyonce: Good morning baby
Idris: Good morning
Beyonce: Good morning Tavia
Tavia: Good morning mommy
Beyonce: It smells good in here what are you cooking
Idris: Blueberry pancakes, eggs and bacon
Beyonce: You must of read my mind that's exactly what I wanted
Idris: Could you set the table because its almost done
Beyonce: Sure
I did what Idris asked me to do and by the time I finished Idris was coming with the food. We all sat at the table and ate and enjoyed each other company. I was finally happy for the first time. I told Idris after breakfast I would call Shawn to see if he can help me out with my music and of course Idris didn't like it but he said it was fine with it. Then he got up and went upstairs to get ready for work. I washed the dishes cleaned Tavia up and than she and I went into the living room. I turned on the television for her than I called Shawn. Shawn and I talked for about an hour and he set up some studio time for me and I was soooooo happy. After I hung up with Shawn I heard Idris calling for me so I went upstairs to see what he wanted.
Beyonce: What is baby
Idris: What is this Beyonce
When he showed me one of my birth control pills my whole body felt numb. How could I be sooo stupid and careless. When I picking up the pills yesterday I must of missed one. SHITT!
Beyonce: Baby its an aspirin
Idris: Don't lie to me Beyonce.
Beyonce: I'm not lying
Idris: Beyonce aspirins are not red. You are lying
Beyonce: I'm not!! These are new Kelly gave me some yesterday she gave me about 5 to bring home. I took one yesterday and dropped the rest on the floor so I through them out before I came to breakfast. I must have missed one though
Idris: Are you sure these are aspirin
Beyonce: Yes baby
I walked up to Idris and gave him a kiss and tried to take the pill from him but he wouldn't let me he said he'll put it in the outside trash for me so Tavia can't get to them. I told him ok and he left for work. At lease I thought he did until he came into the house 8 hours later screaming.
Idris: BEYONCE WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!!!!!
Beyonce: Idris lower your voice before you wake up Tavia and what the hell are you yelling for!!
Idris: DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO IN MY HOUSE YOU FUCKING LIAR!!!!!!!!
Beyonce: What are you talking about? I never lied to you
Idris: Yes you did, this morning this aint no fucking aspirin its a birth control pill. Yo stupid ass had me thinking it was something wrong with my sperm count or something and in reality you ass was on the fucking pill
Idris is pissed as hell at me right now and I'm soo scared because I never seen him this mad before and I can't respond to him because- OCHhh!!!
Idris: Stupid ass!!!
I can't believe he just put his hands on me. He just slapped me to the grown and I guess I do deserve it. *crying*
Beyonce: I can't believe you just just slapped me
Idris: Yep and you lucky that's all I did. Now get yo ass up and fix yo face before my daughter come down here and see you like this
Idris went up stairs and got in the shower and I sat on the floor and cried. For about 15 minutes and I heard him coming down the stairs. He stood in front of me.
Idris: I thought I told you to get up
Beyonce: I was just about to
Idris: Come here let me help you up.
I was shocked at how nice he was being but I was super pissed at him but I let him help me up.
Idris: Look I am sorry I should of never put my hands on you I promise I will never do it again ok
Beyonce: Ok. I'm sorry for lying
Idris kissed me and took me up to the bathroom and help he fix me face. I had a red bruise on the right side of my face so I covered it with my hair. After I was finished he told me I looked beautiful and asked me how did it go with Shawn. When he said that my whole mood changed and not in good way. I was actually afraid to tell him the truth because of what he might do. Well he get angry again and try to hit me. Shit maybe I just ignore the question I need to talk to my mother anyway.
Beyonce: It went fine.
I tried to walk away but he stopped me
Idris: Why the hell you running away? Did you fuck him or something?
Beyonce: WHAT??
Idris: You heard me. Did you fuck him???
Beyonce: No Idris Look! Calm Down all we did was write songs...
I could tell he thought i was lying this is some Complete BULLSHIT. I wasn't lying though All we did was really sit and listen to beats that his best friend made and i was writing and singing, But I'm afraid to tell him that. He seriously is going to stop hitting me though.
To Be Continued.....
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Sunday, April 15, 2012
Chapter 2 (US)
BEFORE we start i would like to say Kyesha and I are not COPYING no one else blog. Its totally different from others and YES there is another blog like this but they are totally and I personally like that one but WE are going in a totally different direction than that so Yeah thats all I had to say and if you have anything to say in concerns hit us up on our twitters @hereivbey2 and @singitlike_kels BACK TO THE STORY...
Last Time.....
Idris is crazy for leaving me with him most guys would of took their wives with them but I guess he trust me but anyway me and shawn just stood there and looked into each other eyes...
After 5mins he finally broke the silence. "What are you doing with a guy like him. I was really shocked at that but I played it cool. "UMM what do you mean a guy like him I know you are not trying to hit on your best friends wife." He laughed. "Chill ma I'm just playing but what do you do for a living? "I am a boring house wife" "So you have no job or like typed of career." "Nope Idris told me he would take care of me and told me I didn't need one so I just do whatever, I'm a mother and wife all day everyday. "Well that is a full time job but I see Idris and I are VERY different, I like my Women to be successful and live their dreams just like I'm living mines." I was so turned on by that WHY Idris can't have his mind. I just smiled at him. "So what are your dreams I know you have to have some." he asked me. " I just told you I'm living my dreams I have a child and a husband who love me". "You are lying I can tell". "How?" " I just can but what is your number I want us to talk more NOT anything more that friend I just feel like friends you seem like cool person." I just sat there and look at him then he pulled out his phone and gave it to me. I put my number in there. I mean if my husband can have a female friends I should be be able to have a male friend. "I'm going to save your number as Baby thug Because you look nice but you also look like you will kill somebody if they mess with you." This nigga so lame for that but i didn't say nothing i just laughed. " So is your husband gonna be okay with that." "I'm grown I can do what I want. But anyway where is he?" I looked around and then i seen him walking up. "Hey babe" Idris said. I looked at him and was thinking where the hell was he and he didn't even bring a drink back. "What i miss" He said as he was sitting down. Shawn looked at me. " Well nothing except I think me and your wife became friends" Idris looked at me and started smiling. Oh really he said. Yea she is really cool people Shawn answered back. Well I hope she was wasn't to nice Idris said looking at me. No she was a perfect lady. We Shawn said that I couldn't help but to smile I was really digging his swag. Anyway we dance ate and partied the night away. I actually enjoyed myself it was a lot of fun but the whole night I couldn't keep my eyes off of Shawn and I could tell Idris wasn't happen about it because the ride home was silent in awkward and when we got home we went went straight to bed which is little weird because usually after nights like this we make love. To be honest I'm happy we didn't do it because I wasn't really in the mood anyway.
The next morning Tavia, Idris and I was sitting at the kitchen table and enjoying breakfast but I could still feel the awkwardness so I couldn't help myself I had to ask Idris what was wrong. He looked at me and said "I don't wont you talking to Shawn anymore" I was shocked and a little pissed but I was actually kind of impressed I never heard him talk like this before. Why? I asked. Beyonce he is bad news he is no good and I rather you not get mixed up with him. Idris I think I can handle myself I don't need you telling me who I can and can not talk to. I am your husband Beyonce! And I am grown Idris I can do what I please. Like I said Beyonce I don't want you talking to him. You know what Idris I don't need this I'm out of here I'll be back later. I got up from the kitchen table and I was about to walk out but Idris stopped me. Beyonce I have to work today so you have to take Tavia. Now don't get me wrong I love spending time with my daughter but I was so pissed at Idris that I told him to fine a baby-sitter than. He looked at me like I was crazy but I didn't care I walked out the house got in my car and Shawn and pulled off.
Two weeks passed and Idris and I have been distance towards each other, the only time we talk was if we were discussing Tavia. Today was his day off and I woke up first, I got up and freshen up put some clothes on and decided to go chill with my best friend Kelly. I got to Kelly's house and she open the door. "heyyyy B" Hey kels wassup Girl nothing I had me a little booty call last night "girl you know you are a HOE right. "Forget you Beyonce. Anyway hey little one Kelly said as she ran her fingers through Tavia's hair. Hey auntie Kelly.Can I go to the game room?? "sure baby" So B whats been going on with you.? I tell her everything only because she is my best friend. GIRRRRL ok tell me how do you feel about idris? I mean I love that man soo much god help me but seriously he refuse to let me live my life and is just killing me. "UMM excuse me but you are GROWN.. "I know but you know how it is when someone is taking care of you. Actually I don't. I rolled my eyes at Kelly but she did have a point Kelly has never been married. Well since you don't know I'll explain it to you. Long story short his money his rules I kinda don't have a choice. "Ok Bey but have Shawn text you since that night you went to see him? "he said he would but he haven't so I don't care". To be honest I don't have the time for him I need to get things right with my husband because at the end of the day he is the one that's gonna be there for me not Shawn."Well when are you going to talk to Idris."
Kelly I really don't know what to say to him. "Awww Bey where is my best friend that said everything and anything that came to her mind you started to piss me off for real now BEYONCE I can tell you have some to say now LET IT OUT! When Kelly said that I just instantly gained my confidence back, not that I had lost it or anything I guess it was just a wake up call. Beyonce tell me whats really going on. "Ok some years ago I married a SEXY fine business man who loved me and cared about me. Beyonce girl I already know that part. I laughed and continued on with the story. Kelly girl everything is great the sex, the gifts, the way he treat Tavia everything. So what's the problem Bey? He is not a boring man Kelly its just I'm bored with MY LIFE and He just wants me to stay home and chill and I don't want to do that. Just the thought of me not being able to live my life and follow my dreams made the tears flowing. I know its a little weird from me to be crying right now but hell I cried when Tavia fell and scrapped her leg I'm a cry baby. "Awww BB don't cry and why wont you just tell him that. "Kelly I CAN'T he is taking care of me. She sighed "You sound like a child Bey get a job and follow your dreams. There is no one stopping you but you" "LOOK Kelly it's good to have someone taking care of me but I think you're right. I want my own money and I wana be able to do my own things ya know. "Have y'all talked about you getting a job or going back to school or anything? YES numerous times that's mostly what we argue about. He always say "All I need from you baby is to cook, clean, and take care of the baby" and that's boring Kelly you know me I DO NOT like to be bored. "Yes B I know just calm down tell him how you feel."He told me if I bring it back up he would fine someone who appreciates what he can do for them. So I said ok fine we won't talk about it any more."GIRL you tripping foreal now" Kelly to be honest I don't want to let Idris go because I know if I do he will go out and have a baby by another women and Kelly I know this may sound selfish but I don't want Tavia having any more brothers and sisters unless they are coming from me. Beyonce that is the stupidest thing I ever heard. Beyonce you don't want anymore kids right now so you're stopping him from having more. Beyonce I love you but you really need to grow up. When Kelly said that I just continue to cry until my phone vibrated it was a text from a unknown number. I responded to the text by saying who if this? He responded Shawn. I thought to my self great I don't need any more confusion in my life
Last Time.....
Idris is crazy for leaving me with him most guys would of took their wives with them but I guess he trust me but anyway me and shawn just stood there and looked into each other eyes...
After 5mins he finally broke the silence. "What are you doing with a guy like him. I was really shocked at that but I played it cool. "UMM what do you mean a guy like him I know you are not trying to hit on your best friends wife." He laughed. "Chill ma I'm just playing but what do you do for a living? "I am a boring house wife" "So you have no job or like typed of career." "Nope Idris told me he would take care of me and told me I didn't need one so I just do whatever, I'm a mother and wife all day everyday. "Well that is a full time job but I see Idris and I are VERY different, I like my Women to be successful and live their dreams just like I'm living mines." I was so turned on by that WHY Idris can't have his mind. I just smiled at him. "So what are your dreams I know you have to have some." he asked me. " I just told you I'm living my dreams I have a child and a husband who love me". "You are lying I can tell". "How?" " I just can but what is your number I want us to talk more NOT anything more that friend I just feel like friends you seem like cool person." I just sat there and look at him then he pulled out his phone and gave it to me. I put my number in there. I mean if my husband can have a female friends I should be be able to have a male friend. "I'm going to save your number as Baby thug Because you look nice but you also look like you will kill somebody if they mess with you." This nigga so lame for that but i didn't say nothing i just laughed. " So is your husband gonna be okay with that." "I'm grown I can do what I want. But anyway where is he?" I looked around and then i seen him walking up. "Hey babe" Idris said. I looked at him and was thinking where the hell was he and he didn't even bring a drink back. "What i miss" He said as he was sitting down. Shawn looked at me. " Well nothing except I think me and your wife became friends" Idris looked at me and started smiling. Oh really he said. Yea she is really cool people Shawn answered back. Well I hope she was wasn't to nice Idris said looking at me. No she was a perfect lady. We Shawn said that I couldn't help but to smile I was really digging his swag. Anyway we dance ate and partied the night away. I actually enjoyed myself it was a lot of fun but the whole night I couldn't keep my eyes off of Shawn and I could tell Idris wasn't happen about it because the ride home was silent in awkward and when we got home we went went straight to bed which is little weird because usually after nights like this we make love. To be honest I'm happy we didn't do it because I wasn't really in the mood anyway.
The next morning Tavia, Idris and I was sitting at the kitchen table and enjoying breakfast but I could still feel the awkwardness so I couldn't help myself I had to ask Idris what was wrong. He looked at me and said "I don't wont you talking to Shawn anymore" I was shocked and a little pissed but I was actually kind of impressed I never heard him talk like this before. Why? I asked. Beyonce he is bad news he is no good and I rather you not get mixed up with him. Idris I think I can handle myself I don't need you telling me who I can and can not talk to. I am your husband Beyonce! And I am grown Idris I can do what I please. Like I said Beyonce I don't want you talking to him. You know what Idris I don't need this I'm out of here I'll be back later. I got up from the kitchen table and I was about to walk out but Idris stopped me. Beyonce I have to work today so you have to take Tavia. Now don't get me wrong I love spending time with my daughter but I was so pissed at Idris that I told him to fine a baby-sitter than. He looked at me like I was crazy but I didn't care I walked out the house got in my car and Shawn and pulled off.
Two weeks passed and Idris and I have been distance towards each other, the only time we talk was if we were discussing Tavia. Today was his day off and I woke up first, I got up and freshen up put some clothes on and decided to go chill with my best friend Kelly. I got to Kelly's house and she open the door. "heyyyy B" Hey kels wassup Girl nothing I had me a little booty call last night "girl you know you are a HOE right. "Forget you Beyonce. Anyway hey little one Kelly said as she ran her fingers through Tavia's hair. Hey auntie Kelly.Can I go to the game room?? "sure baby" So B whats been going on with you.? I tell her everything only because she is my best friend. GIRRRRL ok tell me how do you feel about idris? I mean I love that man soo much god help me but seriously he refuse to let me live my life and is just killing me. "UMM excuse me but you are GROWN.. "I know but you know how it is when someone is taking care of you. Actually I don't. I rolled my eyes at Kelly but she did have a point Kelly has never been married. Well since you don't know I'll explain it to you. Long story short his money his rules I kinda don't have a choice. "Ok Bey but have Shawn text you since that night you went to see him? "he said he would but he haven't so I don't care". To be honest I don't have the time for him I need to get things right with my husband because at the end of the day he is the one that's gonna be there for me not Shawn."Well when are you going to talk to Idris."
Kelly I really don't know what to say to him. "Awww Bey where is my best friend that said everything and anything that came to her mind you started to piss me off for real now BEYONCE I can tell you have some to say now LET IT OUT! When Kelly said that I just instantly gained my confidence back, not that I had lost it or anything I guess it was just a wake up call. Beyonce tell me whats really going on. "Ok some years ago I married a SEXY fine business man who loved me and cared about me. Beyonce girl I already know that part. I laughed and continued on with the story. Kelly girl everything is great the sex, the gifts, the way he treat Tavia everything. So what's the problem Bey? He is not a boring man Kelly its just I'm bored with MY LIFE and He just wants me to stay home and chill and I don't want to do that. Just the thought of me not being able to live my life and follow my dreams made the tears flowing. I know its a little weird from me to be crying right now but hell I cried when Tavia fell and scrapped her leg I'm a cry baby. "Awww BB don't cry and why wont you just tell him that. "Kelly I CAN'T he is taking care of me. She sighed "You sound like a child Bey get a job and follow your dreams. There is no one stopping you but you" "LOOK Kelly it's good to have someone taking care of me but I think you're right. I want my own money and I wana be able to do my own things ya know. "Have y'all talked about you getting a job or going back to school or anything? YES numerous times that's mostly what we argue about. He always say "All I need from you baby is to cook, clean, and take care of the baby" and that's boring Kelly you know me I DO NOT like to be bored. "Yes B I know just calm down tell him how you feel."He told me if I bring it back up he would fine someone who appreciates what he can do for them. So I said ok fine we won't talk about it any more."GIRL you tripping foreal now" Kelly to be honest I don't want to let Idris go because I know if I do he will go out and have a baby by another women and Kelly I know this may sound selfish but I don't want Tavia having any more brothers and sisters unless they are coming from me. Beyonce that is the stupidest thing I ever heard. Beyonce you don't want anymore kids right now so you're stopping him from having more. Beyonce I love you but you really need to grow up. When Kelly said that I just continue to cry until my phone vibrated it was a text from a unknown number. I responded to the text by saying who if this? He responded Shawn. I thought to my self great I don't need any more confusion in my life
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Chapter 1 (Flaws)
Hi I'm Beyonce and some may see my life as perfect. My husband Idris whom I've been married to for over three years now is the owner of a multi million dollar company and I'm a stay at home mother to a three year old daughter named Tavia . She is the smartest little girl in the world and I wouldn't trade for anything. My husband pretty much gives Tavia and I anything we need want and desire and he always tells me that I wont ever need to work for anything. See I have the perfect life. Its just one thing wrong I'm bored and I have dreams and goals. I want to be a singer and a fashion designer but my husband and my mother would never approve. All they want from me is babies and to be honest I don't wont anymore kids. My husband and I or should I say my husband has been trying to get pregnant again every since Tavia turned two but I've been secretly taking birth control pills. He think we have some type of medical condition and that's why we can't get pregnant again but truth is I don't wont to be pregnant again. I know its a little selfish but I'm ready to start my life . I am only 24 years old and I'm living the life of a women twice my age. I mean don't get me wrong the sex is FAB and I love my husband but I just can't do it anymore. Im tired of being told how live my life. I thinks it's time to let my mother and husband know how I feel but when the time is right.
Speaking of the devil here is my husband now walking out of his office. He sent a driver to our home earlier today to pick me up from home than to get him from the office.We're suppose to be at this party at around 8pm. Its suppose to be hosted by one of his friends from the music side of the business. I've never met him before but Idris told me that he is one best rappers in the world. Now I'm not a rap kind of a girl like I wouldn't know a rapper if sat right in front of me. Hi baby, Idris said while getting into the car. Hey baby I answered back after placing a soft kiss on his check. He smiled out from ear to ear while I gave a fake smile in return. Like I said I love my husband but our life is way to boring for me. So baby what type of party is this again. My best friend Shawn is throwing an album release party to celebrate the success of his first album. So why do I have to come. I asked. If you don't want to come you don't have to but I think you will enjoy yourself. So do you want to come or not I can have the driver take you home. I was totally shocked by his response so I said I would go. Plus is he is not begging to come so most likely there are gona be women there throwing themselves at him. I'm may not be happy in my marriage but it's mine and I don't need some tramp coming in and ruining things between us. Wait! What am I talking about Idris would never cheat he is way to boring for that. Anyway after I told Idris I would come to the party we rode the rest of the way in complete silence.
We arrived at the party at around 8:30 he got out the car first than he helped me out. Ummm baby why didn't you wear the dress I bought you yesterday? he asked me. Well the dress you bought me yesterday was ugly. Idris I told you I don't like you picking out my clothes. I know you don't like it but this dress Beyonce is a little to short. I rolled my eyes at him and said if you have a problem with what I'm wearing than take me home then I guess he heard the anger in my voice so he just said my dress is beautiful and I'll be ok in it. I rolled my eyes again and we walked in the party hand and hand. Ugggg we can't even have an argument right he such a pushover.
We walked in the party and it was A LOT of celebrities in there so I was kinda star struck.. Two hours passed and I haven't even met Shawn yet because of all the groupies. As we approached him Shawn seen us coming his way so he started walking towards us. He was wearing sun glasses on so I couldn't see what he looked like. Hey man he said to Idris as they dapped, then he looked at me. First he just stood there like I was a ghost but then he took off his sun glasses and all of a sudden my mind went blank. That man was sooo damn sexy and them lips. Lawwwd forgive me but DAMN!! Wait I gotta snap out of it before Idris notice I was about to have a orgasm right here. Calm down Beyonce you are married I said to myself. I snapped out of it when I noticed he was staring at me. He said "Hey who is this beautiful woman" and I couldn't help but to smile. My wife Idris said. I can introduce myself I'm a big girl I said to Idris while looking at Shawn I couldn't take my eyes off him. Hey I'm Beyonce I said in a sexy voice while shaking his hand. "Hey babe I'm going to get something to drink stay here" Idris said breaking the small silence. Idris is crazy for leaving me with him most guys would of took their wives with them but I guess he trust me but anyway me and shawn just stood there and looked into each other eyes...
TBC.. Thanks for reading let us know what you think. Comment below or hit us up on our Twitters Kyesha (@HereIVBey2) and Kelsey has two twitters (@SingitLike_Kels or @_BeyHive_)
Speaking of the devil here is my husband now walking out of his office. He sent a driver to our home earlier today to pick me up from home than to get him from the office.We're suppose to be at this party at around 8pm. Its suppose to be hosted by one of his friends from the music side of the business. I've never met him before but Idris told me that he is one best rappers in the world. Now I'm not a rap kind of a girl like I wouldn't know a rapper if sat right in front of me. Hi baby, Idris said while getting into the car. Hey baby I answered back after placing a soft kiss on his check. He smiled out from ear to ear while I gave a fake smile in return. Like I said I love my husband but our life is way to boring for me. So baby what type of party is this again. My best friend Shawn is throwing an album release party to celebrate the success of his first album. So why do I have to come. I asked. If you don't want to come you don't have to but I think you will enjoy yourself. So do you want to come or not I can have the driver take you home. I was totally shocked by his response so I said I would go. Plus is he is not begging to come so most likely there are gona be women there throwing themselves at him. I'm may not be happy in my marriage but it's mine and I don't need some tramp coming in and ruining things between us. Wait! What am I talking about Idris would never cheat he is way to boring for that. Anyway after I told Idris I would come to the party we rode the rest of the way in complete silence.
We arrived at the party at around 8:30 he got out the car first than he helped me out. Ummm baby why didn't you wear the dress I bought you yesterday? he asked me. Well the dress you bought me yesterday was ugly. Idris I told you I don't like you picking out my clothes. I know you don't like it but this dress Beyonce is a little to short. I rolled my eyes at him and said if you have a problem with what I'm wearing than take me home then I guess he heard the anger in my voice so he just said my dress is beautiful and I'll be ok in it. I rolled my eyes again and we walked in the party hand and hand. Ugggg we can't even have an argument right he such a pushover.
We walked in the party and it was A LOT of celebrities in there so I was kinda star struck.. Two hours passed and I haven't even met Shawn yet because of all the groupies. As we approached him Shawn seen us coming his way so he started walking towards us. He was wearing sun glasses on so I couldn't see what he looked like. Hey man he said to Idris as they dapped, then he looked at me. First he just stood there like I was a ghost but then he took off his sun glasses and all of a sudden my mind went blank. That man was sooo damn sexy and them lips. Lawwwd forgive me but DAMN!! Wait I gotta snap out of it before Idris notice I was about to have a orgasm right here. Calm down Beyonce you are married I said to myself. I snapped out of it when I noticed he was staring at me. He said "Hey who is this beautiful woman" and I couldn't help but to smile. My wife Idris said. I can introduce myself I'm a big girl I said to Idris while looking at Shawn I couldn't take my eyes off him. Hey I'm Beyonce I said in a sexy voice while shaking his hand. "Hey babe I'm going to get something to drink stay here" Idris said breaking the small silence. Idris is crazy for leaving me with him most guys would of took their wives with them but I guess he trust me but anyway me and shawn just stood there and looked into each other eyes...
TBC.. Thanks for reading let us know what you think. Comment below or hit us up on our Twitters Kyesha (@HereIVBey2) and Kelsey has two twitters (@SingitLike_Kels or @_BeyHive_)
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