Last Time......
Shawn was in tears and so was I, even though I never met Jessica's mother I felt sorry for her Jessica and Shawn. I raised up a little and wiped Shawn's falling tear and I told him that we will find Tasha and get help for her. He nodded his head yes and sniffed a little then I kissed his forehead which exposed my body a little. Then I kissed his lips, I couldn't help myself. I know I said I needed to heal before Shawn and I took things any further but I knew my healing process was over because I was in love. I was ready to go the distance with him but this time he stopped me.
(Beyonce) What's wrong
(Shawn) Bey I don't want you feeling sorry for me. I don't want petty sex
(Beyonce) Shawn I really wanna do this. I love you
(Shawn) I love you too but I can't do this at lease not right now. You wasn't ready at first and now I'm not. I'm just really messed up in the head right now. I need time to think.
(Beyonce) Ok I understand you're still in love with her
(Shawn) I think I should probably leave while you finish your bath. Goodnight.
(Beyonce) Goodnight
(Beyonce POV)
Shawn kissed me on the cheek and left. I was shocked he turned me down especially after all the flirting he does. Maybe it was a good thing I turned him down, but now I want him.
Now......
*A few Days later back in NY*
(Beyonce POV)
I was sitting in Jay's living room browsing the internet for jobs. I never really had a job before because Idris has been taking care of me since we graduated out of college, so my degree in law has been buried deep in my closet. My dream is to became a singer but its taking a little longer then I expected and I have a daughter to take care of so I have to find a job. Shawn told me not to worry about working, he told me to focus on my music career and he'll take care of everything else. I told him that was nice in all but I really should get my own apartment. Of course he asked why and I just told him that I want to be independent, which was the truth just not the whole truth. The whole truth is every since Florida I've been feeling kind of awkward around Shawn.
(Shawn) Hey Bey *sitting next to Beyonce*
(Beyonce) Hey
(Shawn) What are you doing? Still looking for a job?
(Beyonce) Yep, and I found this law firm who is hiring new lawyers. I have an interview tomorrow morning at 9.
(Shawn) I told you you didn't have to work
(Beyonce) I know but I want to. Tavia and I need a place of our own.
(Shawn) Well if that's how you feel I'm not going to try to stop you
(Beyonce) Thanks, but can I ask you something
(Shawn) Sure
(Beyonce) Jessica wants me to help her find her mom
(Shawn) No. Beyonce
(Beyonce) Shawn she deserves to know the truth about her mom
(Shawn) I said NO! now please drop it
(Beyonce) Fine.
The next morning I got up around 7to get ready for my interview. I dressed in a black business suit with a white ruffled shirt that poured out of the jacket with some 4inch red bottoms. I then straighten my hair and put on a hat which put my whole look together. I left the house at around 8:15 and arrived at my interview around 8:45 which was perfect because I wanted to get there early. During my interview I knew the owner of the law firm was skeptical about hiring me because I never practiced law before. He said he usually hired lawyers with more experience and told me he would call me. I knew he wasn't gonna call me but I refused to give up. So by the time I was done putting up a fight he said that I was very persistent and he liked that about me so he offered me the job.
(Beyonce) Ohmygod thank you so much, you will not be disappointed
(Ryan) I'm sure I won't be. I'll see you on Monday.
(Beyonce) Thank you, but can I ask you one more thing
(Ryan) What is it
(Beyonce) I know I just started and this maybe asking for to much but can I get an advance? I'll pay the money back, I have a daughter and we need an apartment.
(Ryan) Look I don't know
(Beyonce) Please
(Ryan) Look I'll talk it over with my partners and call you later if something happens
(Beyonce) Ok that's all I ask
(Ryan) Ok it was nice meeting you and I'll see you Monday
(Beyonce) Nice meeting you too.
I waited around for that phone call and I never got it. Now I'm not someone who begs anyone for anything so I just said fuck it. Plus I had some money in the bank that I got from Idris during our divorce and more that I just put away for a rainy day. I was planning on saving it for Tavia's college fund but since I'm working now I'm sure I can put the money back. So with that the next day I was out of Shawn's house.
(Bey's Condo)
(Beyonce) So Tavia how do you like our new home
(Tavia) I like my other room better
(Beyonce) Tavia that wasn't your room, it was Jessica's room
(Tavia) It was both our room
(Beyonce) Ok Tavia. Lets go get dress so we can get out of here.
(Tavia) Ok!
(Jay's house)
(Jessica) I miss Tavia and Beyonce
(Shawn) They've only been gone for two days
(Jessica) I know but I still miss them
(Shawn) Do you wana go out for dinner and ice-cream
(Jessica) Not really
(Shawn) Come on I promise not to sign any autographs and we can take a bodyguard so the paparazzi won't come to close
(Jessica) Where is my mom
(Shawn) I don't want to talk about your mom
(Jessica) I heard you talking I know she's sick and lost. We need need to find her
(Shawn) Jessica I said NO! Now do you wana go out or not
(Jessica) NO!! I'm going to my room
(Shawn) Fine well I'm going out.
(Shawn POV)
I told my hired help I was leaving and to keep an eye on Jessica and then I left. I can't let Jessica around her mom at lease not until I know for a fact she was ok.
(Bey's House)
(Beyonce) Tavia your shoes are on the wrong feet, switch them around please
(Tavia) Ok
(Beyonce) Do you need my help
(Tavia) No
(Beyonce POV)
Tavia is four going on 5 and she likes to do things on her own now which was a good thing. After Tavia fixed her shoes we was about to head out until my phone started ringing and when I looked at the number I was surprised.
(Beyonce) Hello
(Jessica) Beyonce its Jessica
(Beyonce) I know. Is everything ok
(Jessica) No
(Beyonce) Jessica what's wrong
(Jessica) It's my dad he wont tell me anything about my mom and he don't even want to look for her
(Beyonce) Jessica I tried talking to him about it and he wasn't really trying to hear what I had to say.
(Jessica) Could you take me to go look for her
(Beyonce) Jessica I don't-
(Jessica) *crying* Please Beyonce she's my mom
(Beyonce) Jessica I can't your father would kill me
(Jessica) Please Beyonce what if it was your mom. *crying*
(Beyonce) Jes-
(Jessica) Please
(Beyonce) *sighs* Ok. I'll pick you up in 15 minutes and make sure your dad knows you're leaving.
(Jessica) Ok. Thanks. Bye
(Beyonce) Bye.
I know this has "BAD IDEA" written all over but I just couldn't bring myself to say no to her. Ugggg Shawn is gonna kill me if he finds out.
(Beyonce) Tavia are you ready
(Tavia) Yes
(Beyonce) Ok good because there has been a change of plans
(Tavia) Where are we going then
(Beyonce) I don't know
(Tavia) You don't know
(Beyonce) Nope, so lets go
(Tavia) Okaaaaaaaay
After I picked up Jessica we searched everywhere for Tasha. Now I had no idea of what she looked like so really our fate lied in the hands of a 10 and half year old. I constantly ask myself why am I so nice. To be honest searching for Tasha could ruin any chance I may have with Shawn. Well anyway we looked everywhere and we couldn't find her. So we stopped in a restaurant to pick up something to eat, well actually it was more like an old fashion diner with a television and jukebox. So while we were enjoying our dinner something caught Jessica's eye.
(Jessica) Beyonce look
(Beyonce) At what?
(Jessica) The television its my mom
Dang I was kind of hoping that we didn't find her that way I wouldn't have to explain to Shawn why I went behind his back. Looking at Tasha on the news made me wonder how can such a beautiful women in up like she did. I mean she looked smart and she looked like a normal business women, but I guess looks can be deceiving. The news said she was found on a street corner past out. They said she was ok but is listed as a John Doe because she had no identification on her. They said the only thing she had in her purse was a picture and that was what they was showing on the screen. It was a picture of holding a very young Jessica.
(Jessica) Could we please go see her
(Beyonce) Jessica I don't know
(Jessica) But you promised
(Beyonce) Ok. Finish eating and then we can go
(Jessica) I'm done now
(Beyonce) Tavia are you done
(Tavia) Not yet
(Beyonce) Ok take your time
(Jessica) No!! Hurry up Tavia
(Tavia) Don't rush me!!
(Beyonce) Jessica we will get there
(Jessica) Ok
Tavia was done eating after 10 minutes. She only had a few thing left on her plate to finish so I don't understand what took her so long to finish up. My guess would be that she is just messing with Jessica. Any who after we left the diner we went to the hospital and the nurse took us right to Tasha's room. When we walked in Jessica took one look at her mom and fell to the ground crying. I dropped to the grown and held her and tried to calm her down. I knew this was a bad idea. Tasha looked horrible, she looked nothing like the picture they had shown on the news. She looked almost like she was beaten, drugged, and everything else. I help Jessica off the floor and she was still crying and upset. Tasha wasn't woke yet so I decided to leave but of course before we made it out the room Shawn was coming in. I guess he watched the news too how ironic is that right smh. When I saw him I felt like this could not be real. I mean like in real life we would of made it out the hospital and Shawn wouldn't of caught us. Him catching us made me feel like I was living in a really messed up fairy tale like in a book or a movie, this could not be happening.
(Shawn) Beyonce what are ya'll doing here!
(Beyonce) I'm sorry
(Shawn) I don't need your sorry! Look at Jessica, I told you I didn't want her anywhere around Tasha.
(Beyonce) Shawn listen
(Shawn) I don't want to hear what you have to say, you went behind my back. Jessica is my daughter you had no right to do this
(Jessica) *crying* Daddy it's my fault please don't be mad a Beyonce
(Shawn) Beyonce is an adult. She did this with out her driving you wouldn't be here. She could of said NO!!
(Beyonce) I think we should go. Come Tavia and Jessica
(Shawn) I want you to take Jessica back to my place because after tonight I don't want you around her anymore
(Beyonce) Shawn that's not fair, please don't do this
(Shawn) You heard what I said. As-A-Matter-Of-A-Fact I'll take her home. You can just leave
(Beyonce) Fine!
I left without saying another word. I mean what could I say what I did was wrong. I know he didn't
mean what he said about me not seeing Jessica anymore. I mean at lease I hope he didn't. I arrived back home at about 11:30pm and I gave Tavia a bath and put her to bed. Then I took a shower and climb into bed. I tossed and turned until about 2:30am, I couldn't sleep because my mind was on Shawn so I decided to call him. I knew he wouldn't be sleep because he was like ummm what ever kind of animal that don't sleep. The first two times I called I didn't get an answer, so I tried one more time and he answered.
(Shawn) What
(Beyonce) I know you're mad but please can we talk
(Shawn) No, now please stop calling me. For now own I want to keep our relationship strictly business. So with that being said for now on only call me when it's about your album.
(Beyonce) Shawn but-
(Shawn) I'm not done. Since our relationship is strictly business now only call me during normal business days and hours and no Saturday is not a business day and this right now this is not a business hour it's 2:40am so if you need me call me Monday between 9am and 6pm.
(Beyonce) Shawn can I please talk
(Shawn) Bye Beyonce
*Click*
After that conversation I couldn't help but cry. I know he wasn't just gona trash all the feeling he have for me away because of one mistake. I really wanted to call Jessica to see how she was doing but that really wouldn't be a good idea so I cried myself to sleep.
(Shawn's POV)
I knew what I said to her was kind of harsh but I couldn't let her get away with this. Jessica actually cried for about four hours. I had to explain to my 10 year old daughter what drugs and prostitution was and how it affect's her mother. Of course that made her cry even more and then she said she hated her mother. Which was the exact thing I was trying to avoid. I never wanted Jessica to hate her mother especially when I knew Tasha would get better one day. I guess my conversation with Jessica really got to her because she woke up twice during the night crying and eventually asked to sleep with me. Of course I told her yea and soon after she climbed into bed with me she went to sleep. After about a hour of watching her sleep I went to sleep after her.
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(Beyonce POV)
Its been about two week and I've only talked to Shawn maybe 4 or 5 times during business hours like he asked. I haven't seen or talked to Jessica since that day at the hospital and I felt awful. I guess Shawn really meant what he said, but anyway I was just getting off work and heading to the studio. Tavia was at my sister's house playing with my nephew. Solange said she would watch Tavia while I worked which was great because she don't start school until next year. Anyway I just arrived at the studio and when i walked in I saw the usual people Ty Ty, Kanye, and some other people from Roc-Nations but still no Shawn. I was a little sad but it was fine I guess. I was just a little pissed about me having to go in the studio to sing a crappy love song but its whats ever. I went into the booth and started recording I Rather Be With You and soon I was lost in the music and everything and everyone around me disappeared.
(Shawn POV)
After I dropped Jessica off at cheerleader practice I decided to go to the studio so I could talk to Beyonce. When I walked into the studio I saw Beyonce in the booth recording and I felt so bad because of what I did. I finally gave Jessica a chance to tell me everything that had went down that day and even though what Jessie told me still don't excuse Bey's actions it did make me forgive her. Tasha was out of the hospital and back into rehab and she promised to finish this time which was good. After seeing Tasha in the hospital I realized that me and Tasha are over for good. I realized I wasn't in love with her anymore but I still did love her. I was in love with Beyonce she was the one who had my heart. When I'm with her I'm my happiness and when I'm away from her nothing seems to make me happy. These past two weeks has been nothing but hell without her so I was ready to have her back in my life. I just hope she forgives me. I asked everyone to leave the studio and of course they was asking why but I was on a mission and I didn't feel like explaining. After they left I walked into the booth and stud right behind her. I guess she was so caught up in the music because she didn't even notice me until I turned off the music.
(Beyonce) What going on?
(Beyonce POV)
I looked out the studio window and noticed everyone was gone, then I turned around and I saw Shawn standing right behind me.
(Beyonce) What are you doing here?
(Shawn POV)
As soon as she turned around to speak I kissed her. I didn't feel like explaining myself so I just went for it. I started tonging her down and she was letting me and I was surprised. I pushed her into the wall with out breaking the kiss.
(Beyonce POV)
I really didn't know what was going on but if I had to guess I would say he forgave me. I was really enjoying our makeout session until I felt his hands trying to take off my shirt so I stopped him.
(Beyonce) Wait!! Please explain to me what's going on here
(Shawn) Look Beyonce I'm sorry about everything ok. Jessica told me everything and I feel awful about what I did to you. So do you forgive me?
(Beyonce) Of course I forgive you
(Shawns POV)
I was so happy she forgave me so I picked her up and sat her on top of the table. I wanted her right now but of course she stopped me again.
(Beyonce) Shawn I can't do this
(Shawn) What why I thought-
(Beyonce) No I mean I can't do this here, this is our first time so I want it to be romantic. And this right here is not. So come on lets go back to my place.
(Shawn) Ok
To Be Continued.....
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Friday, May 18, 2012
Chapter 9 (Flipping The Script)
Last Time......
(Beyonce POV)
He laughed at me and then starting swimming closer to me. I grabbed his head and pushed him under the water and somehow he brought me down with him. We where having so much fun. I don't know if it was the whine or the water but I felt as if I was floating. It was the best feeling ever. I looked at Shawn and it seem as if he was having a good time too now that he has gotten use to the water. We stayed in the ocean for at lease a hour before the water start getting to cold. We climb up the side of the boat and he hugged me and said goodnight. I went to my room and he went to his. It was literally the best night ever. We where only missing one thing to make this night absolutely perfect but like I said before I must heal first. For the first night in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face.
(Jay POV)
Why do I always let her get to me. Normally I would of never in a million years jumped off a boat. I guess she has that affect on me because any other female I would of just let drown. I think I was actually falling in love with her. I took a cold shower and went to sleep. Yes seeing her all wet really turned me on. I had to keep reminding myself that we are just friends.
Now.......
*The next day Disney World 4pm*
(Beyonce POV)
So far today everything has been great. The boat had stopped in Florida so we decided to take the girls to Disney land. This was our last stop before we went back to NY. Shawn owns a house here in Florida so that's where we are gona stay until we go back to NY. Tavia and Jessica are getting alone and me and Shawn are enjoying our time together. Well everything is ok except the paparazzi they have been snapping pics and asking Jessica questions about her mom all day. I can tell she is uncomfortable and so is Shawn, but when I said we should go Shawn said Jessica has to get use to the paparazzi because everywhere he go they go. Now me and Tavia is loving the attention, I mean this is our first encounter with paparazzi. Anyway Tavia and Jessica are boarding the ride and Shawn and I are gonna sit back and watch.
(Shawn) So are you enjoying yourself
(Beyonce) Yea I actually think I'm having more fun then Tavia and Jessica
(Shawn) *laughs* I don't think that's possible
(Beyonce) Yea I agree. Imma go right there to get me a snow cone I'll be back
(Shawn) I'll come with you
(Beyonce) What about the girls
(Shawn) The ride is just starting and its 10 feet away by the time we get back the ride will just be ending
(Beyonce) Ok.
Shawn paid for my snow cone even though I asked him to let me do it but he insists. After I received my snow cone we started walking back towards the ride then Shawn stopped me and told me to tie my shoe.
(Beyonce) Ugggg see this is why I where heels so I wont have to worry about shoe laces. Can you please hold this *handing Shawn the snow cone*
(Shawn) Can I have some
(Beyonce) *tying her shoe* NO! I don't know where your lips been
(Shawn) I'll take that as a yes
(Beyonce) If you bite my snow cone we are gonna fight *standing up*
(Shawn) Are you threatening me
(Beyonce) No! Its a promise
(Shawn) Ok
(Beyonce) I will seriously hurt you if you do it
(Shawn) Ok *biting the snow cone*
(Beyonce) Are you serious right now
I tried to hit Shawn but he grabbed me. I tried to break loose but he pulled me in close to him and our lips was literally a centimeter away from each others. If either of us moved we would kiss, this was one of those awkward moments but I broke it by asking for my snow cone back.
(Beyonce) Sorry I can't do this at lease not yet
(Shawn) I know that's why I didn't kiss you *handing Bey her snow cone*
(Beyonce) Thank you
Shawn and I walked back over to where the girls was and I swear we wasn't even gone for 5 minutes but when we return the ride was letting out. I saw Tavia running towards me but I didn't see Jessica.
(Beyonce) Tavia where is Jessica
(Tavia) I don't know she was right behind me
(Shawn) What?!
(Beyonce) Come on maybe she is mixed up with the crowd
We went over to the ride where all the kids was getting off the ride and we didn't see Jessica. I could see the worry and Shawn's eyes but he was trying to hide it. I picked up Tavia and told Shawn not to worry and we started our search for Jessica. We looked everywhere and we searched for about a hour and still no Jessica. By this time Shawn was in a panic and so was I. We got the park security to help us look but this park is huge. It would take us at lease 7 or 8 hours to cover the whole park.
(Tavia) Mommy I have to pee
(Beyonce) Can you hold it we have to find Jessica first
(Tavia) No mommy I have to go now
(Beyonce) Tavia-
(Shawn) Bey its ok go. I'll continue to look. Take her to the bathroom
(Beyonce) Ok and Shawn we will find her
(Shawn) I know.
(Beyonce) If something happens before I come back call me please,
(Shawn) OK
I carried Tavia to the restroom which was way on the other side of the park and when I went into the restroom I saw Jessica.
(Beyonce) Jessica why did you walk off? Your father is worried sick about you
(Jessica) Because I'm tired of the paparazzi and all the questions. I just wanna go back home with my mom.
(Beyonce) Awww Jessica. Look I need to call your father to let him know I found you.
(Jessica) Please No!! They are gonna follow him.
(Beyonce) I have to so could you please help Tavia to the restroom
(Jessica) Sure
I called Shawn and told him we had found Jessica and he sighed in relief. After Tavia finished in the restroom we met Shawn back at a bench in the front of the park.
(Shawn) Jessica why did you run off like that?! You scared me half to death!!!
(Jessica) Daddy I'm sorry
(Shawn) Jessica sorry is not gona-
(Beyonce) Shawn! Let her talk. Jessica tell your dad why you ran off
(Jessica) I ran off because I wana go home
(Shawn) Jessica all you had to do was ask to go home and we couldn't of left that is not a reason to run off.
(Jessica) No daddy I wana go home home. I wana move back home with my mommy. I don't like living with you *crying*
(Jay) Why Jessica
(Jessica) Because every time we go somewhere there are people following us. talking pictures asking for autographs and asking question about my mom and I don't like that. When I lived with mommy we never had that. Plus daddy I don't even know why I had to come move with you anyway I didn't ask for this.
(Shawn POV)
When Jessica told me that I was hurt and shocked. I never knew she felt this way but I can't send her back to live with her mom. I grabbed Jessica and I held her in my arms and I explained to her that she couldn't move back with her mom, of course she asked why but I wasn't ready to tell her. I changed the subject by telling her I promise to do something about the paparazzi, stans and the groupies even though I didn't know what. We talked for about 15 minutes and then she said she was ok and apologized again for running off.
(Beyonce) Are you sure you're ok Jessi
(Jessica) Yes
(Beyonce) Ok lets go see the fireworks they are about to start in a few minutes.
(Tavia) Yaeee!!!!!!!!!!
(Beyonce POV)
We walked over to part of the park where the fireworks was being held at. By the time we got there they where just starting. 10 minutes into the show I looked over at Tavia and Jessica and they both was enjoying the show then I looked at Shawn who was a little distant.
(Beyonce) Are you ok
(Shawn) Yea I'm ok
(Beyonce) Jessica was scared that's why she said those things Shawn she's only 10.
(Shawn) I know its not that
(Beyonce) Then what is it
(Shawn) I can't let her go move back with her mom it's................
(Beyonce) It's what?
(Shawn) Never mind lets just drop it
(Beyonce) Shawn you can talk to me
(Shawn) Beyonce drop it!!
(Beyonce) But-
(Shawn) Girls are we ready to go
(Jessica) The fireworks are not over yet
(Shawn) I know but its almost time for bed
(Jessica) Please can we stay
(Tavia) Please
(Shawn) OK.
(Beyonce POV)
We watched the rest of the show in complete silence and the whole ride back to Shawn's Florida home was quiet. When we entered the house I was in complete shock, the house was beautiful. It looked 10 times better then his home in NY.
(Beyonce) Shawn this is beautiful
(Shawn) Thanks
(Beyonce) You're Welcome. I th-
(Shawn) Bey could you please get the girls ready for bed while I get your room together. Jessica will show you where everything is
(Beyonce) Sure.
Every since I mentioned Jessica's mom to Shawn he's been avoiding me and I was kind of getting angry because I didn't do anything. Anyway I did what he asked and I ran Jessica some bathwater and she gave her self a bath while I used the other bathroom to bathe Tavia. After both girls was clean I put them in the bed and took a bath myself. I was finally relaxed when I heard someone knocking on the door.
(Beyonce) Yes!
(Shawn) Can I come in
Normally I would of told him no but my necked body was covered with bubbles so you couldn't see anything
(Beyonce) Sure!!
(Shawn) Can we talk
(Beyonce) Sure
*Shawn sat on the tub*
(Shawn) Bey I'm sorry for they way I've been acting. It's just when people bring up Jessica's mother I hate myself for allowing Jessi to stay with her all these years
(Beyonce) What happen Shawn?
(Shawn) When Jessica was about 3 her mom and I broke up and of course Jessica stayed with mom. It was the best thing for her. But anyway a few months after I left Tasha met someone new and before I knew it he had her whoring around.
(Beyonce) So why didn't you just take Jessica
(Shawn) Because I didn't know until Jessica was about 6 when she started telling me what was going on. So I took Tasha and I got help for her because even though we had broken up I was sill In love with her. So anyway Tasha started back acting like herself again until recently I started noticing something wasn't right about her. She was loosing weight and she wasn't looking well so I knew it was drugs. Now Jessica on the other hand didn't notice because she was still the perfect mother in her eyes but I knew something was wrong. I took Jessica away from her and put Tasha in a rehab but I just found out that she checked herself out.
(Beyonce) Shawn I'm sorry
(Shawn) I don't even know where she is right now. I tried calling all her old friends and they haven't seen her. I tried her parents and they haven't even seen her. So what am I suppose to say to say to Jessica when she ask about mom or ask to move back with her again. I know its coming, she will ask again because I can't turn the paparazzi or the groupies off and I can't keep her face out the papers.
(Beyonce POV)
Shawn was in tears and so was I, even though I never met Jessica's mother I felt sorry for her Jessica and Shawn. I raised up a little and wiped Shawn's falling tear and I told him that we will find Tasha and get help for her. He nodded his head yes and sniffed a little then I kissed his forehead which exposed my body a little. Then I kissed his lips, I couldn't help myself. I know I said I needed to heal before Shawn and I took things any further but I knew my healing process was over because I was in love. I was ready to go the distance with him but this time he stopped me.
(Beyonce) What's wrong
(Shawn) Bey I don't want you feeling sorry for me. I don't want petty sex
(Beyonce) Shawn I really wanna do this. I love you
(Shawn) I love you too but I can't do this at lease not right now. You wasn't ready at first and now I'm not. I'm just really messed up in the head right now. I need time to think.
(Beyonce) Ok I understand you're still in love with her
(Shawn) I think I should probably leave while you finish your bath. Goodnight.
(Beyonce) Goodnight
(Beyonce POV)
Shawn kissed me on the cheek and left. I was shocked he turned me down especially after all the flirting he does. Maybe it was a good thing I turned him down, but now I want him.
To Be Continued......
(Beyonce POV)
He laughed at me and then starting swimming closer to me. I grabbed his head and pushed him under the water and somehow he brought me down with him. We where having so much fun. I don't know if it was the whine or the water but I felt as if I was floating. It was the best feeling ever. I looked at Shawn and it seem as if he was having a good time too now that he has gotten use to the water. We stayed in the ocean for at lease a hour before the water start getting to cold. We climb up the side of the boat and he hugged me and said goodnight. I went to my room and he went to his. It was literally the best night ever. We where only missing one thing to make this night absolutely perfect but like I said before I must heal first. For the first night in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face.
(Jay POV)
Why do I always let her get to me. Normally I would of never in a million years jumped off a boat. I guess she has that affect on me because any other female I would of just let drown. I think I was actually falling in love with her. I took a cold shower and went to sleep. Yes seeing her all wet really turned me on. I had to keep reminding myself that we are just friends.
Now.......
*The next day Disney World 4pm*
(Beyonce POV)
So far today everything has been great. The boat had stopped in Florida so we decided to take the girls to Disney land. This was our last stop before we went back to NY. Shawn owns a house here in Florida so that's where we are gona stay until we go back to NY. Tavia and Jessica are getting alone and me and Shawn are enjoying our time together. Well everything is ok except the paparazzi they have been snapping pics and asking Jessica questions about her mom all day. I can tell she is uncomfortable and so is Shawn, but when I said we should go Shawn said Jessica has to get use to the paparazzi because everywhere he go they go. Now me and Tavia is loving the attention, I mean this is our first encounter with paparazzi. Anyway Tavia and Jessica are boarding the ride and Shawn and I are gonna sit back and watch.
(Shawn) So are you enjoying yourself
(Beyonce) Yea I actually think I'm having more fun then Tavia and Jessica
(Shawn) *laughs* I don't think that's possible
(Beyonce) Yea I agree. Imma go right there to get me a snow cone I'll be back
(Shawn) I'll come with you
(Beyonce) What about the girls
(Shawn) The ride is just starting and its 10 feet away by the time we get back the ride will just be ending
(Beyonce) Ok.
Shawn paid for my snow cone even though I asked him to let me do it but he insists. After I received my snow cone we started walking back towards the ride then Shawn stopped me and told me to tie my shoe.
(Beyonce) Ugggg see this is why I where heels so I wont have to worry about shoe laces. Can you please hold this *handing Shawn the snow cone*
(Shawn) Can I have some
(Beyonce) *tying her shoe* NO! I don't know where your lips been
(Shawn) I'll take that as a yes
(Beyonce) If you bite my snow cone we are gonna fight *standing up*
(Shawn) Are you threatening me
(Beyonce) No! Its a promise
(Shawn) Ok
(Beyonce) I will seriously hurt you if you do it
(Shawn) Ok *biting the snow cone*
(Beyonce) Are you serious right now
I tried to hit Shawn but he grabbed me. I tried to break loose but he pulled me in close to him and our lips was literally a centimeter away from each others. If either of us moved we would kiss, this was one of those awkward moments but I broke it by asking for my snow cone back.
(Beyonce) Sorry I can't do this at lease not yet
(Shawn) I know that's why I didn't kiss you *handing Bey her snow cone*
(Beyonce) Thank you
Shawn and I walked back over to where the girls was and I swear we wasn't even gone for 5 minutes but when we return the ride was letting out. I saw Tavia running towards me but I didn't see Jessica.
(Beyonce) Tavia where is Jessica
(Tavia) I don't know she was right behind me
(Shawn) What?!
(Beyonce) Come on maybe she is mixed up with the crowd
We went over to the ride where all the kids was getting off the ride and we didn't see Jessica. I could see the worry and Shawn's eyes but he was trying to hide it. I picked up Tavia and told Shawn not to worry and we started our search for Jessica. We looked everywhere and we searched for about a hour and still no Jessica. By this time Shawn was in a panic and so was I. We got the park security to help us look but this park is huge. It would take us at lease 7 or 8 hours to cover the whole park.
(Tavia) Mommy I have to pee
(Beyonce) Can you hold it we have to find Jessica first
(Tavia) No mommy I have to go now
(Beyonce) Tavia-
(Shawn) Bey its ok go. I'll continue to look. Take her to the bathroom
(Beyonce) Ok and Shawn we will find her
(Shawn) I know.
(Beyonce) If something happens before I come back call me please,
(Shawn) OK
I carried Tavia to the restroom which was way on the other side of the park and when I went into the restroom I saw Jessica.
(Beyonce) Jessica why did you walk off? Your father is worried sick about you
(Jessica) Because I'm tired of the paparazzi and all the questions. I just wanna go back home with my mom.
(Beyonce) Awww Jessica. Look I need to call your father to let him know I found you.
(Jessica) Please No!! They are gonna follow him.
(Beyonce) I have to so could you please help Tavia to the restroom
(Jessica) Sure
I called Shawn and told him we had found Jessica and he sighed in relief. After Tavia finished in the restroom we met Shawn back at a bench in the front of the park.
(Shawn) Jessica why did you run off like that?! You scared me half to death!!!
(Jessica) Daddy I'm sorry
(Shawn) Jessica sorry is not gona-
(Beyonce) Shawn! Let her talk. Jessica tell your dad why you ran off
(Jessica) I ran off because I wana go home
(Shawn) Jessica all you had to do was ask to go home and we couldn't of left that is not a reason to run off.
(Jessica) No daddy I wana go home home. I wana move back home with my mommy. I don't like living with you *crying*
(Jay) Why Jessica
(Jessica) Because every time we go somewhere there are people following us. talking pictures asking for autographs and asking question about my mom and I don't like that. When I lived with mommy we never had that. Plus daddy I don't even know why I had to come move with you anyway I didn't ask for this.
(Shawn POV)
When Jessica told me that I was hurt and shocked. I never knew she felt this way but I can't send her back to live with her mom. I grabbed Jessica and I held her in my arms and I explained to her that she couldn't move back with her mom, of course she asked why but I wasn't ready to tell her. I changed the subject by telling her I promise to do something about the paparazzi, stans and the groupies even though I didn't know what. We talked for about 15 minutes and then she said she was ok and apologized again for running off.
(Beyonce) Are you sure you're ok Jessi
(Jessica) Yes
(Beyonce) Ok lets go see the fireworks they are about to start in a few minutes.
(Tavia) Yaeee!!!!!!!!!!
(Beyonce POV)
We walked over to part of the park where the fireworks was being held at. By the time we got there they where just starting. 10 minutes into the show I looked over at Tavia and Jessica and they both was enjoying the show then I looked at Shawn who was a little distant.
(Beyonce) Are you ok
(Shawn) Yea I'm ok
(Beyonce) Jessica was scared that's why she said those things Shawn she's only 10.
(Shawn) I know its not that
(Beyonce) Then what is it
(Shawn) I can't let her go move back with her mom it's................
(Beyonce) It's what?
(Shawn) Never mind lets just drop it
(Beyonce) Shawn you can talk to me
(Shawn) Beyonce drop it!!
(Beyonce) But-
(Shawn) Girls are we ready to go
(Jessica) The fireworks are not over yet
(Shawn) I know but its almost time for bed
(Jessica) Please can we stay
(Tavia) Please
(Shawn) OK.
(Beyonce POV)
We watched the rest of the show in complete silence and the whole ride back to Shawn's Florida home was quiet. When we entered the house I was in complete shock, the house was beautiful. It looked 10 times better then his home in NY.
(Beyonce) Shawn this is beautiful
(Shawn) Thanks
(Beyonce) You're Welcome. I th-
(Shawn) Bey could you please get the girls ready for bed while I get your room together. Jessica will show you where everything is
(Beyonce) Sure.
Every since I mentioned Jessica's mom to Shawn he's been avoiding me and I was kind of getting angry because I didn't do anything. Anyway I did what he asked and I ran Jessica some bathwater and she gave her self a bath while I used the other bathroom to bathe Tavia. After both girls was clean I put them in the bed and took a bath myself. I was finally relaxed when I heard someone knocking on the door.
(Beyonce) Yes!
(Shawn) Can I come in
Normally I would of told him no but my necked body was covered with bubbles so you couldn't see anything
(Beyonce) Sure!!
(Shawn) Can we talk
(Beyonce) Sure
*Shawn sat on the tub*
(Shawn) Bey I'm sorry for they way I've been acting. It's just when people bring up Jessica's mother I hate myself for allowing Jessi to stay with her all these years
(Beyonce) What happen Shawn?
(Shawn) When Jessica was about 3 her mom and I broke up and of course Jessica stayed with mom. It was the best thing for her. But anyway a few months after I left Tasha met someone new and before I knew it he had her whoring around.
(Beyonce) So why didn't you just take Jessica
(Shawn) Because I didn't know until Jessica was about 6 when she started telling me what was going on. So I took Tasha and I got help for her because even though we had broken up I was sill In love with her. So anyway Tasha started back acting like herself again until recently I started noticing something wasn't right about her. She was loosing weight and she wasn't looking well so I knew it was drugs. Now Jessica on the other hand didn't notice because she was still the perfect mother in her eyes but I knew something was wrong. I took Jessica away from her and put Tasha in a rehab but I just found out that she checked herself out.
(Beyonce) Shawn I'm sorry
(Shawn) I don't even know where she is right now. I tried calling all her old friends and they haven't seen her. I tried her parents and they haven't even seen her. So what am I suppose to say to say to Jessica when she ask about mom or ask to move back with her again. I know its coming, she will ask again because I can't turn the paparazzi or the groupies off and I can't keep her face out the papers.
(Beyonce POV)
Shawn was in tears and so was I, even though I never met Jessica's mother I felt sorry for her Jessica and Shawn. I raised up a little and wiped Shawn's falling tear and I told him that we will find Tasha and get help for her. He nodded his head yes and sniffed a little then I kissed his forehead which exposed my body a little. Then I kissed his lips, I couldn't help myself. I know I said I needed to heal before Shawn and I took things any further but I knew my healing process was over because I was in love. I was ready to go the distance with him but this time he stopped me.
(Beyonce) What's wrong
(Shawn) Bey I don't want you feeling sorry for me. I don't want petty sex
(Beyonce) Shawn I really wanna do this. I love you
(Shawn) I love you too but I can't do this at lease not right now. You wasn't ready at first and now I'm not. I'm just really messed up in the head right now. I need time to think.
(Beyonce) Ok I understand you're still in love with her
(Shawn) I think I should probably leave while you finish your bath. Goodnight.
(Beyonce) Goodnight
(Beyonce POV)
Shawn kissed me on the cheek and left. I was shocked he turned me down especially after all the flirting he does. Maybe it was a good thing I turned him down, but now I want him.
To Be Continued......
Monday, May 14, 2012
chapter 8 (live laugh Love)
Last Time.....
I went into the house and saw Bey sitting on the couch she looked at me and said "I'm done with him Shawn last night was it for me". I told her that I loved more than anything else in this world. Well besides Jessica, I then asked her to let me take care of her and Tavia. Then I asked her the biggest question of them all I asked her did she love me and she told me yes. That was all I needed to hear but she carried on.
(Beyonce) *Crying* I loved you since the first day I saw you and I want you to take care of me
I grabbed Beyonce and I kissed her like this was gonna be the last time I saw her but she broke the kiss.
(Jay) What's wrong
(Beyonce) Shawn I meant as a friend. I'm not ready for a serious relationship right now. I'm sorry, maybe Tavia and I should go now.
(Jay) No stay. Its ok I understand. Lets be friends first then maybe one we could have a relation.
(Beyonce) Yea maybe one day
Now.....
*2 weeks later*
Beyonce (POV)
Every since all that drama had happened with Idris Shawn and I have been on good terms. These past few weeks have been nothing but fun. Shawn had surprised me and the girls with a month long cruise. He said that I deserve a vacation and so did Tavia. I haven't seen or heard from Idris since that day and it feels great i hope he never comes back. I thought I would miss him but truth is I don't. I really haven't even thought about him and Tavia haven't either. I guess its because we both are finally happy.
I walked tavia to the room and got her ready for bed. She seemed really upset about what Jessica had said to her. So I calm her down told her it was going to be okay and soon she feel asleep. Then I showered and put on my PJs and walk back down to the deck to chill with shawn.
I went into the house and saw Bey sitting on the couch she looked at me and said "I'm done with him Shawn last night was it for me". I told her that I loved more than anything else in this world. Well besides Jessica, I then asked her to let me take care of her and Tavia. Then I asked her the biggest question of them all I asked her did she love me and she told me yes. That was all I needed to hear but she carried on.
(Beyonce) *Crying* I loved you since the first day I saw you and I want you to take care of me
I grabbed Beyonce and I kissed her like this was gonna be the last time I saw her but she broke the kiss.
(Jay) What's wrong
(Beyonce) Shawn I meant as a friend. I'm not ready for a serious relationship right now. I'm sorry, maybe Tavia and I should go now.
(Jay) No stay. Its ok I understand. Lets be friends first then maybe one we could have a relation.
(Beyonce) Yea maybe one day
Now.....
*2 weeks later*
Beyonce (POV)
Every since all that drama had happened with Idris Shawn and I have been on good terms. These past few weeks have been nothing but fun. Shawn had surprised me and the girls with a month long cruise. He said that I deserve a vacation and so did Tavia. I haven't seen or heard from Idris since that day and it feels great i hope he never comes back. I thought I would miss him but truth is I don't. I really haven't even thought about him and Tavia haven't either. I guess its because we both are finally happy.
Right now I'm sitting on the dock and just thinking about every up under the sun until Tavia interpreted. Since her father left she has been spending a lot of time with Solange and Jessica while I have been working in the studio and she done pick up some of their bad habits. Tavia's mouth is out of control. I know she is only 4 and probably doesn't know any better but I get on here a couple of times. I would never beat her but she has had her little hands spanked.
Tavia: Hi Mommy.
Beyonce: Hey baby. Wassup
Tavia: Nothing i just wanted to say I'm happy we don't live with daddy any more. I'm proud of you.
Ya'll see what I mean, what do a four year old know about being proud of somebody. She is too grown for me. Hopefully she will grow out of it
Beyonce: Aww thanks baby. Where's Jessica
Tavia: Her and shawn went to the pool.
Beyonce: Why didn't you go?
Tavia: Because I'm a thug.
Beyonce: A what?!
Tavia: A thug
Beyonce: *burst out laughing* Girl please. Thug shouldn't be in your vocabulary
Tavia: A thug
Beyonce: *burst out laughing* Girl please. Thug shouldn't be in your vocabulary
Tavia: Alright mommy you will see one day.
Beyonce: I guarantee you I won't. Where did you get that from anyway?
Tavia: TT Solange told me we thugs and we do what we want.
Beyonce: Remind me to stop letting you go over there. For now on you are coming with me to the studio
Tavia: HA! Girl Paaaleseeee
Beyonce: GIRL CH... Alright little one Don't get your little behind whooped. I got your girl!!
Tavia: Ok mommy I love you I'm sorry.
Beyonce: I love you 2.
Tavia is really something else. I really have to stop letting her go over solange house because she is turning into a little clone of her and Jessica. Jessica is know better then Tavia. Actually she is worst. Her month is like Tavia's times 10. Though she never disrespected me I still don't like the was she speak around Tavia. Any who Tavia and I sat talked for about 30 mins and then Jessica and shawn came in.
Jessica: YOOOOOOOO What up TAY!!! TAYY!!!
Ya'll see what I mean she is a 10 year old thug and Tavia is learning from her. Now why couldn't she just come in and say hi like a normal 10 year old.
Ya'll see what I mean she is a 10 year old thug and Tavia is learning from her. Now why couldn't she just come in and say hi like a normal 10 year old.
Tavia: Nothing Just up here Doing G thangs.
Beyonce: Tavia what did we just finish talking about? I don't want you speaking like that. Use correct English please. You are NOT a thug and "Thangs is not a word"
Tavia: Sorry
Jessica: You too ugly for that anyway
.Shawn: JESSICA!!!
Beyonce: Tavia what did we just finish talking about? I don't want you speaking like that. Use correct English please. You are NOT a thug and "Thangs is not a word"
Tavia: Sorry
Jessica: You too ugly for that anyway
.Shawn: JESSICA!!!
Tavia: UGLY. GirlLLL the only things that are ugly is those spaced out teeth you got.
Jessica: TUH! i know you ain't talking with that Long giraffe neck
Tavia: Girl boo At least my nose and lips ain't Big.
Jessica: Shutup that's why you younger than me.
Tavia: So at least I beat your A-
Beyonce: Say it and I'm going to beat you. Yall thats enough.
They are like demon children like where do the get this from. Well I know where Tavia may of heard the word "Ass" from but this other stuff. Like Solange would never, at lease I don't think she would
They are like demon children like where do the get this from. Well I know where Tavia may of heard the word "Ass" from but this other stuff. Like Solange would never, at lease I don't think she would
Shawn: Yeah thats enough Jess go to the room and get ready for bed.
Jessica: UGHHH
Beyonce: Come tavia let me get you ready for bed before I have to choke you up. Shawn i'll be right back.
I walked tavia to the room and got her ready for bed. She seemed really upset about what Jessica had said to her. So I calm her down told her it was going to be okay and soon she feel asleep. Then I showered and put on my PJs and walk back down to the deck to chill with shawn.
Beyonce: hey Big head.
Shawn: Hey! Aye you gotta admit that shit was TOOO funny
Beyonce: Yeah I'm not going to lie it kinda was but its not cool I don't like.
Shawn: They are gona argue sometimes
Beyonce: I know that. I just don't like the language that they use
Shawn: I'll talk to Jessica
Beyonce: Thank you
Shawn: They are gona argue sometimes
Beyonce: I know that. I just don't like the language that they use
Shawn: I'll talk to Jessica
Beyonce: Thank you
Shawn: So how are you feeling?
Beyonce: I feel great. I've packed up all my negative thoughts and when we get off this boat I'm leaving them here
Shawn: Well that's good.
Beyonce: So whats the plan tomorrow? Where do the boat stop at?
Shawn: Well the were stoping in Florida tomorrow so we are going to Sea world and Disney World
Beyonce: OHHH lord The girls are going to LOVE that.
Shawn: Maybe it would even get them to befriends again.
Beyonce: Yea MAYBE Tavia is like me she HOLDS Grudges and is stubborn.
Shawn: Really? You are not that Stubborn.
Beyonce: I am at times.
Shawn: Well kids are different, they will be taking again before breakfast tomorrow
Beyonce: Yea I know. OHMYGOD
Shawn: What!?
Beyonce: Do you hear that
Shawn: Hear what? The music
Beyonce: Yes!! This is my song can we please dance
Shawn: I don't dance
Beyonce: Please. I really love this song. *Singing* "Here you calling out my name but I feel no shame I'm in love sweet love. Don't you-
Shawn: Ok please stop singing. If you let Anita Baker sing the rest of the song I will dance with you
Beyonce: Are you trying to say I can't sing
Shawn: * silent*
Beyonce: I can sing
Shawn: *laughs* I'm just messing with you. You have a beautiful voice *taking Bey's hand*.
Now lets dance
Beyonce: Thank you.
I wrapped my hands around his neck and he grabbed my waist. I felt at home in his arms and it was a good feeling. He smelled soooo good I don't know what type of cologne he was wearing but what ever it was it was turning me on.
(Jay's POV)
I love having her in my arms. Something about her just felt right. I wanted her so bad but I decided to erase the thoughts out of my head because I knew she only wanted friendship.
(Beyonce POV)
Thank god the song just ended because I was ready to jump on him. But like I said before I just need a friend right now. Plus I think I'm still vulnerable and if Shawn and I did get together this soon three months from now I would probably look at him like he was just a rebound. Before I build a relationship with him I need to heal first. That way I would know if what we have is real or just convenient.
After the dance we just sat down and talked and joked around. We also had a few glasses of whine and I was starting to get a little tipsy and for some reasons I couldn't keep my hands off him so I had to do something to get my mind out the gutters. He told me I should go bed because I was drunk but I had something else in mind.
Beyonce: I will in a few but come me
Shawn: Come with you where
Beyonce: Just come with me its a surprise. As a matter or a fact here take my scarf and put it over your eyes.
Shawn: Beyonce
Beyonce: Please
Shawn: Ok
Shawn covered his eyes and I walked him to the top of the boat and brought him to the edge.
Beyonce: Shawn before you take the blind fold off do you trust me?
Shawn: Of course I trust you
Beyonce: Will you do what I ask you to do
Shawn: It depends on what it is
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: I said it-
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: Fine Yes!
Beyonce: Ok imma take the scarf off but I don't want you to move. You have to stay still
We are so close to the edge of the boat that if he moved he would fall into the water
Shawn: You're scaring me now
Beyonce: Just do what I say
Shawn: Ok
I took the scarf off from around his eyes and the look on his face was priceless. He looked like he had just seen a ghost
Shawn: Why are we up here
Beyonce: Lets jump
Shawn: Beyonce you are drunk. I'm not about to jump off the boat into the ocean. Its just not about to happen
Beyonce: It will be fun I promise people do it all the time
Shawn: What kind of people because where I from people don't jump into the ocean
Beyonce: We had a deal so you have to do it
Shawn: No! What if we die
Beyonce: *laughs* We are not gona die. It will be find I promise
Shawn: NO not gonna happen lets go.
Beyonce: I'm jumping
Shawn: You better not.
Beyonce: Watch me
(Jay POV)
I can believe she just jumped into the ocean. I waited a few seconds and I saw that she didn't come up from up under the water so I called her name. I called her about 5 times and nothing so I had no choice but to jump in behind her. What if she was drowning. As soon as I hit the water I opened my eyes and saw her smiling at me and we both floated to the stop of the ocean.
Shawn: Are you crazy
Beyonce: Nope not at all
Shawn: How did you know I was gona jump in after you
Beyonce: Because I knew you wasn't gonna let me die
Shawn: What if I couldn't swim
Beyonce: Then I guess I would of had to save you
Shawn: I never jumped off a boat before
Beyonce: Neither have I. I guess its a first time for everything
Shawn: What if we drowned
Beyonce: But we didn't so it doesn't matter
Shawn: You know what you are crazy
Beyonce: No. I just like to take risk
Shawn: Well I'm never doing this again
Beyonce: One day yes you will
(Beyonce POV)
He laughed at me and then starting swimming closer to me. I grabbed his head and pushed him under the water and somehow he brought me down with him. We where having so much fun. I don't know if it was the whine or the water but I felt as if I was floating. It was the best feeling ever. I looked at Shawn and it seem as if he was having a good time too now that he has gotten use to the water. We stayed in the ocean for at lease a hour before the water start getting to cold. We climb up the side of the boat and he hugged me and said goodnight. I went to my room and he went to his. It was literally the best night ever. We where only missing one thing to make this night absolutely perfect but like I said before I must heal first. For the first night in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face.
(Jay POV)
Why do I always let her get to me. Normally I would of never in a million years jumped off a boat. I guess she has that affect on me because any other female I would of just let drown. I think I was actually falling in love with her. I took a cold shower and went to sleep. Yes seeing her all wet really turned me on. I had to keep reminding myself that we are just friends.
To Be Continued........
Shawn: Well kids are different, they will be taking again before breakfast tomorrow
Beyonce: Yea I know. OHMYGOD
Shawn: What!?
Beyonce: Do you hear that
Shawn: Hear what? The music
Beyonce: Yes!! This is my song can we please dance
Shawn: I don't dance
Beyonce: Please. I really love this song. *Singing* "Here you calling out my name but I feel no shame I'm in love sweet love. Don't you-
Shawn: Ok please stop singing. If you let Anita Baker sing the rest of the song I will dance with you
Beyonce: Are you trying to say I can't sing
Shawn: * silent*
Beyonce: I can sing
Shawn: *laughs* I'm just messing with you. You have a beautiful voice *taking Bey's hand*.
Now lets dance
Beyonce: Thank you.
I wrapped my hands around his neck and he grabbed my waist. I felt at home in his arms and it was a good feeling. He smelled soooo good I don't know what type of cologne he was wearing but what ever it was it was turning me on.
(Jay's POV)
I love having her in my arms. Something about her just felt right. I wanted her so bad but I decided to erase the thoughts out of my head because I knew she only wanted friendship.
(Beyonce POV)
Thank god the song just ended because I was ready to jump on him. But like I said before I just need a friend right now. Plus I think I'm still vulnerable and if Shawn and I did get together this soon three months from now I would probably look at him like he was just a rebound. Before I build a relationship with him I need to heal first. That way I would know if what we have is real or just convenient.
After the dance we just sat down and talked and joked around. We also had a few glasses of whine and I was starting to get a little tipsy and for some reasons I couldn't keep my hands off him so I had to do something to get my mind out the gutters. He told me I should go bed because I was drunk but I had something else in mind.
Beyonce: I will in a few but come me
Shawn: Come with you where
Beyonce: Just come with me its a surprise. As a matter or a fact here take my scarf and put it over your eyes.
Shawn: Beyonce
Beyonce: Please
Shawn: Ok
Shawn covered his eyes and I walked him to the top of the boat and brought him to the edge.
Beyonce: Shawn before you take the blind fold off do you trust me?
Shawn: Of course I trust you
Beyonce: Will you do what I ask you to do
Shawn: It depends on what it is
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: I said it-
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: Fine Yes!
Beyonce: Ok imma take the scarf off but I don't want you to move. You have to stay still
We are so close to the edge of the boat that if he moved he would fall into the water
Shawn: You're scaring me now
Beyonce: Just do what I say
Shawn: Ok
I took the scarf off from around his eyes and the look on his face was priceless. He looked like he had just seen a ghost
Shawn: Why are we up here
Beyonce: Lets jump
Shawn: Beyonce you are drunk. I'm not about to jump off the boat into the ocean. Its just not about to happen
Beyonce: It will be fun I promise people do it all the time
Shawn: What kind of people because where I from people don't jump into the ocean
Beyonce: We had a deal so you have to do it
Shawn: No! What if we die
Beyonce: *laughs* We are not gona die. It will be find I promise
Shawn: NO not gonna happen lets go.
Beyonce: I'm jumping
Shawn: You better not.
Beyonce: Watch me
(Jay POV)
I can believe she just jumped into the ocean. I waited a few seconds and I saw that she didn't come up from up under the water so I called her name. I called her about 5 times and nothing so I had no choice but to jump in behind her. What if she was drowning. As soon as I hit the water I opened my eyes and saw her smiling at me and we both floated to the stop of the ocean.
Shawn: Are you crazy
Beyonce: Nope not at all
Shawn: How did you know I was gona jump in after you
Beyonce: Because I knew you wasn't gonna let me die
Shawn: What if I couldn't swim
Beyonce: Then I guess I would of had to save you
Shawn: I never jumped off a boat before
Beyonce: Neither have I. I guess its a first time for everything
Shawn: What if we drowned
Beyonce: But we didn't so it doesn't matter
Shawn: You know what you are crazy
Beyonce: No. I just like to take risk
Shawn: Well I'm never doing this again
Beyonce: One day yes you will
(Beyonce POV)
He laughed at me and then starting swimming closer to me. I grabbed his head and pushed him under the water and somehow he brought me down with him. We where having so much fun. I don't know if it was the whine or the water but I felt as if I was floating. It was the best feeling ever. I looked at Shawn and it seem as if he was having a good time too now that he has gotten use to the water. We stayed in the ocean for at lease a hour before the water start getting to cold. We climb up the side of the boat and he hugged me and said goodnight. I went to my room and he went to his. It was literally the best night ever. We where only missing one thing to make this night absolutely perfect but like I said before I must heal first. For the first night in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face.
(Jay POV)
Why do I always let her get to me. Normally I would of never in a million years jumped off a boat. I guess she has that affect on me because any other female I would of just let drown. I think I was actually falling in love with her. I took a cold shower and went to sleep. Yes seeing her all wet really turned me on. I had to keep reminding myself that we are just friends.
To Be Continued........
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