chapter 8 (live laugh Love)

Last Time.....


I went into the house and saw Bey sitting on the couch she looked at me and said "I'm done with him Shawn last night was it for me". I told her that I loved more than anything else in this world. Well besides Jessica, I then asked her to let me take care of her and Tavia. Then I asked her the biggest question of them all I asked her did she love me and she told me yes. That was all I needed to hear but she carried on.

(Beyonce) *Crying* I loved you since the first day I saw you and I want you to take care of me

I grabbed Beyonce and I kissed her like this was gonna be the last time I saw her but she broke the kiss.

(Jay) What's wrong
(Beyonce) Shawn I meant as a friend. I'm not ready for a serious relationship right now. I'm sorry, maybe Tavia and I should go now.
(Jay) No stay. Its ok I understand. Lets be friends first then maybe one we could have a relation.
(Beyonce) Yea maybe one day


Now..... 


*2 weeks later*


Beyonce (POV)

Every since all that drama had happened with Idris Shawn and I have been on good terms. These past few weeks have been nothing but fun. Shawn had surprised me and the girls with a month long cruise. He said that I deserve a vacation and so did Tavia. I haven't seen or heard from Idris since that day and it feels great i hope he never comes back. I thought I would miss him but truth is I don't. I really haven't even thought about him and Tavia haven't either. I guess its because we both are finally happy.

Right now I'm sitting on the dock and just thinking about every up under the sun until Tavia interpreted. Since her father left she has been spending a lot of time with Solange and Jessica while I have been working in the studio and she done pick up some of their bad habits. Tavia's mouth is out of control. I know she is only 4 and probably doesn't know any better but I get on here a couple of times. I would never beat her but she has had her little hands spanked.

Tavia: Hi Mommy. 

Beyonce: Hey baby. Wassup

Tavia: Nothing i just wanted to say I'm happy we don't live with daddy any more. I'm proud of you.

Ya'll see what I mean, what do a four year old know about being proud of somebody. She is too grown for me. Hopefully she will grow out of it

Beyonce: Aww thanks baby. Where's Jessica

Tavia: Her and shawn went to the pool.

Beyonce: Why didn't you go?

Tavia: Because I'm a thug.

Beyonce: A what?! 
Tavia: A thug
 Beyonce: *burst out laughing*  Girl please. Thug shouldn't be in your vocabulary

Tavia: Alright mommy you will see one day. 

Beyonce: I guarantee you I won't. Where did you get that from anyway?

Tavia: TT Solange told me we thugs and we do what we want.

Beyonce: Remind me to stop letting you go over there. For now on you are coming with me to the studio

Tavia: HA! Girl Paaaleseeee

Beyonce: GIRL CH... Alright little one Don't get your little behind whooped. I got your girl!!

Tavia: Ok mommy I love you I'm sorry.

Beyonce: I love you 2. 

Tavia is really something else. I really have to stop letting her go over solange house because she is turning into a little clone of her and Jessica. Jessica is know better then Tavia. Actually she is worst. Her month is like Tavia's times 10. Though she never disrespected me I still don't like the was she speak around Tavia. Any who Tavia and I sat talked for about 30 mins and then Jessica and shawn came in. 

Jessica: YOOOOOOOO What up TAY!!! TAYY!!! 


Ya'll see what I mean she is a 10 year old thug and Tavia is learning from her. Now why couldn't she just come in and say hi like a normal 10 year old.

Tavia: Nothing Just up here Doing G thangs.
Beyonce: Tavia what did we just finish talking about? I don't want you speaking like that. Use correct English please. You are NOT a thug and "Thangs is not a word"
Tavia: Sorry
Jessica: You too ugly for that anyway
.Shawn: JESSICA!!!

Tavia: UGLY. GirlLLL the only things that are ugly is those spaced out teeth you got.

Jessica: TUH! i know you ain't talking with that Long giraffe neck 

Tavia: Girl boo At least my nose and lips ain't Big. 

Jessica: Shutup that's why you younger than me.

Tavia: So at least I beat your A-

Beyonce: Say it and I'm going to beat you. Yall thats enough.


They are like demon children like where do the get this from. Well I know where Tavia may of heard the word "Ass" from but this other stuff. Like Solange would never, at lease I don't think she would

Shawn: Yeah thats enough Jess go to the room and get ready for bed. 

Jessica: UGHHH

Beyonce: Come tavia let me get you ready for bed before I have to choke you up. Shawn i'll be right back.

I walked tavia to the room and got her ready for bed. She seemed really upset about what Jessica had said to her. So I calm her down told her it was going to be okay and soon she feel asleep. Then I showered and put on my PJs and walk back down to the deck to chill with shawn. 

Beyonce: hey Big head.

Shawn: Hey! Aye you gotta admit that shit was TOOO funny

Beyonce: Yeah I'm not going to lie it kinda was but its not cool I don't like. 
Shawn: They are gona argue sometimes 
Beyonce: I know that. I just don't like the language that they use
Shawn: I'll talk to Jessica
Beyonce: Thank you

Shawn: So how are you feeling?

Beyonce: I feel great. I've packed up all my negative thoughts and when we get off this boat I'm leaving them here

Shawn: Well that's good.

Beyonce: So whats the plan tomorrow? Where do the boat stop at?

Shawn: Well the were stoping in Florida tomorrow so we are going to Sea world and Disney World

Beyonce: OHHH lord The girls are going to LOVE that. 

Shawn: Maybe it would even get them to befriends again.

Beyonce: Yea MAYBE Tavia is like me she HOLDS Grudges and is stubborn.

Shawn: Really? You are not that Stubborn. 

Beyonce: I am at times.
Shawn: Well kids are different, they will be taking again before breakfast tomorrow
Beyonce: Yea I know. OHMYGOD
Shawn: What!?
Beyonce: Do you hear that
Shawn: Hear what? The music
Beyonce: Yes!! This is my song can we please dance
Shawn: I don't  dance
Beyonce: Please. I really love this song. *Singing* "Here you calling out my name but I feel no shame I'm in love sweet love. Don't you-
Shawn: Ok please stop singing. If you let Anita Baker sing the rest of the song I will dance with you
Beyonce: Are you trying to say I can't sing
Shawn: * silent*
Beyonce: I can sing
Shawn: *laughs* I'm just messing with you. You have a beautiful voice *taking Bey's hand*.
Now lets dance
Beyonce: Thank you.


I wrapped my hands around his neck and he grabbed my waist. I felt at home in his arms and it was a good feeling. He smelled soooo good I don't know what type of cologne he was wearing but what ever it was it was turning me on. 


(Jay's POV)


I love having her in my arms. Something about her just felt right. I wanted her so bad but I decided to erase the thoughts out of my head because I knew she only wanted friendship.


(Beyonce POV)


Thank god the song just ended because I was ready to jump on him. But like I said before I just need a friend right now. Plus I think I'm still vulnerable and if Shawn and I did get together this soon three months from now I would probably look at him like he was just a rebound. Before I build a relationship with him I need to heal first. That way I would know if what we have is real or just convenient. 


After the dance we just sat down and talked and joked around. We also had a few glasses of whine and I was starting to get a little tipsy and for some reasons I couldn't keep my hands off him so I had to do something to get my mind out the gutters. He told me I should go bed because I was drunk but I had something else in mind.


Beyonce: I will in a few but come me
Shawn: Come with you where
Beyonce: Just come with me its a surprise. As a matter or a fact here take my scarf and put it over your eyes.
Shawn: Beyonce
Beyonce: Please
Shawn: Ok


Shawn covered his eyes and I walked him to the top of the boat and brought him to the edge.


Beyonce: Shawn before you take the blind fold off do you trust me?
Shawn: Of course I trust you
Beyonce: Will you do what I ask you to do
Shawn: It depends on what it is
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: I said it-
Beyonce: Yes or No
Shawn: Fine Yes!
Beyonce: Ok imma take the scarf off but I don't want you to move. You have to stay still


We are so close to the edge of the boat that if he moved he would fall into the water


Shawn: You're scaring me now
Beyonce: Just do what I say
Shawn: Ok


I took the scarf off from around his eyes and the look on his face was priceless. He looked like he had just seen a ghost


Shawn: Why are we up here
Beyonce: Lets jump
Shawn: Beyonce you are drunk. I'm not about to jump off the boat into the ocean. Its just not about to happen
Beyonce: It will be fun I promise people do it all the time
Shawn: What kind of people because where I from people don't jump into the ocean
Beyonce: We had a deal so you have to do it
Shawn: No! What if we die
Beyonce: *laughs* We are not gona die. It will be find I promise
Shawn: NO not gonna happen lets go. 
Beyonce: I'm jumping
Shawn: You better not.
Beyonce: Watch me


(Jay POV)


I can believe she just jumped into the ocean. I waited a few seconds and I saw that she didn't come up from up under the water so I called her name. I called her about 5 times and nothing so I had no choice but to jump in behind her. What if she was drowning. As soon as I hit the water I opened my eyes and saw her smiling at me and we both floated to the stop of the ocean.


Shawn: Are you crazy
Beyonce: Nope not at all
Shawn: How did you know I was gona jump in after you
Beyonce: Because I knew you wasn't gonna let me die
Shawn: What if I couldn't swim
Beyonce: Then I guess I would of had to save you
Shawn: I never jumped off a boat before
Beyonce: Neither have I.  I guess its a first time for everything
Shawn: What if we drowned
Beyonce: But we didn't so it doesn't matter
Shawn: You know what you are crazy
Beyonce: No. I just like to take risk
Shawn: Well I'm never doing this again
Beyonce: One day yes you will


(Beyonce POV)


He laughed at me and then starting swimming closer to me. I grabbed his head and pushed him under the water and somehow he brought me down with him. We where having so much fun. I don't know if it was the whine or the water but I felt as if I was floating. It was the best feeling ever. I looked at Shawn and it seem as if he was having a good time too now that he has gotten use to the water. We stayed in the ocean for at lease a hour before the water start getting to cold. We climb up the side of the boat and he hugged me and said goodnight. I went to my room and he went to his. It was literally the best night ever. We where only missing one thing to make this night absolutely perfect but like I said before I must heal first. For the first night in a long time I went to sleep with a smile on my face.


(Jay POV)


Why do I always let her get to me. Normally I would of never in a million years jumped off a boat. I guess she has that affect on me because any other female I would of just let drown. I think I was actually falling in love with her. I took a cold shower and went to sleep. Yes seeing her all wet really turned me on. I had to keep reminding myself that we are just friends.


To Be Continued........